Marvin

2010-07-18T08:57:00.001+08:00

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee:

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly.

The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.

They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.

Of course, the sand filled up everything else.

He asked once more if the jar was full.

The students responded with an unanimous "Yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions - and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else - the small stuff.

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.

The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Play with your children.

Take time to get medical checkups.

Take your spouse out to dinner.

Play another 18.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first - the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.

The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

2010-07-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[x] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
[x] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[ ] You study even when you don't have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[ ] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day
[x] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times
[ ]You make your bed in the morning
[x]You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.

GRAND TOTAL: 18

yay im 18 x)

2010-06-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

"You'll Be In My Heart"

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

lol.. just awesome how sometimes God speaks to you through secular songs.. :)

preaching tests had been awesome!

the last 2 days will be even better :)

2010-06-19T08:55:00.002+08:00

lol it's been almost 2 mths since i last posted.

and this time it wasnt even because im lazy..

i couldn't cause i needed my finances to be directed towards study and family

and internet could be a distraction for me

so i figure prepaid might not be that bad :)

controls myself financially and i can fully use this as a media weapon :)

anyway... just like what God has told me at the start of 2010

this year will never be monotonous

this past 2 mths i went through one of the most challenging times

but also realised that i'm actually surrounded by so many many people who actually and genuinely cares and loves me just as i am

i had never knew people had really held me close to their hearts

after going through years of "God, I will love You and I know You love me too, even if everyone else doesn't"

it's now "God, thank You for showing me that I'm loved by so many people, I want to serve them as much as how my ministry had always been for You."

my cg, JUST, SOT students, and other good friends..

i love you guys...

i went through two camps!!

first the CBS camp

i think it was one of the most disorganised camps i had been through

i don't mean it's not enjoyable

but just messy here and there

that i began to get abit blur... hahah!

but it was good.. got to know some AWESOME people :)

it was almost like God planned this to get me prepared for the next camp....

CAMP ONE!!!!

omg this is like the camp i had been awaiting

because JUST was gonna make their debut!

and i tell you, the performance was great!

and it was really such a great experience

thank God and mel for the opportunity to be a team leader..

cause i really learnt alot

and the sessions.. just awesome..

like how ZY shared.. i dunno how many times i've almost decided to give up

to just, not go for cg and service

because people i love hurt me

because maybe not being a christian might be better after all...

but thank God i hung on to Him...

thank God i'm still here serving Him

and forever i'll still be serving You :)

tests, assignments, sermons to do!!

i'm so so so in trouble.... hahaha!

2010-04-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

once again, its the end of another week!
SOT tmr! (no more morning PM lol)
i really hope tmr will be a good session in SOT
i feel i need more of His anointing..

anyway the weekend has been quite okay..
besides the cockup with the sound ministry IC =/
i've decided to honor my word since i couldn't get through to him
to serve on sunday this week since he scheduled me..
turn out to be good :) actually it's really good to serve.
and i love to serve God in little ways like this..

had 3:16 prac yesterday. it was dope :)
chun choreo-ed a v fun routine
with her sha ji screams once in a while hahahahaha
but i think it's good
i think i need to practice in private more..
cause my attitude and sharpness still not there leh..
God help me..!!!
stepping it up!!

cg was good! i felt the presence of God
but for some reason i couldn't draw in His spirit into my heart..
i think people need to learn that worship is not about the song, singing, guitar or even the aircon
if we have that, its a BONUS!
but without that? it really comes down to the heart
and really.. even if the guitar strings break.
then i was wondering how come EVERYONE was looking at the guitar with WIDE eyes =/
sigh.. when will people get that DNA...

anyway, its really good to see that she has moved on
and that our relationship is back to good frens :)
p/s i really should discipline myself in some areas.. jiayou mars! keep on keeping on :)

2010-04-24T23:28:00.002+08:00

lol. this post will be about what God spoke to me throughout this week

about having a new heart. its a short message.

i felt the need to post it up as temptations started to flood my heart again.

hopefully someone reads it, and be blessed.

or i can use this to prepare to help those who is going through what i have gone through

have you ever felt so condemned that you always succumb to sin?

like no matter how much you prayed, read the bible, fasted, had demons casted out etc etc

but a while later, you slipped back into sin.

the bible says,

Matthew 26:41 (New King James Version)

41 Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

Our fleshly, carnal nature is weak, such that if we allow our mind to follow it, there is no way we can flee from temptation.

but our spirit man is the one always crying out and resisting.

we got to make the choice to follow the spirit man.

Jesus died on the cross to save us from:

1) penalty of sin (which is death)

2) power of sin (temptation)

3) presence of sin (evil itself)

how are we saved from the power of sin which is our temptations?

by the crucifixion of our old sinful nature (old man) and putting on our spirit man (new man)

Colossians 3:9-10 (New King James Version)

9 Do not lie to one another, since you have put off the old man with his deeds, 10 and have put on the new man who is renewed in knowledge according to the image of Him who created him.

Ephesians 4:23-25 (New King James Version)

23 and be renewed in the spirit of your mind, 24 and that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness.

we heard this ALOT ALOT of times before!

but what does it mean to put on the new man?

just like what the verse in Ephesians said - be renewed in the spirit of your mind!

which is our heart!

Romans 10:10 (New King James Version)

10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

Ezekiel 18:31 (New King James Version)

31 Cast away from you all the transgressions which you have committed, and get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit. For why should you die, O house of Israel?

and throughout the bible, God has been telling that He will give us new heart!

Ezekiel 11:19-20 (New King James Version)

19 Then I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within them, and take the stony heart out of their flesh, and give them a heart of flesh,

20 that they may walk in My statutes and keep My judgments and do them; and they shall be My people, and I will be their God.

Ezekiel 36:26-27 (New King James Version)

26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

27 I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will keep My judgments and do them.

then it struck me, a new heart, a new man, a new spirit.

being saved was also to mean to die on the cross.

and being resurrected in Christ.

a new life.. a new beginning..

i've detested my past sins so much, how could i allow myself to sin once again?

God gave me another chance to be pure.

why would i want to cause myself to go through all those crap again?

and furthermore, to sin blatantly and knowingly is not repentance!

in fact, doing so might even cause your salvation to be nullified!

i'm just vomiting stuff out.. cause temptations hit me once again.. i will stand strong for You!

2010-04-21T23:14:00.002+08:00

lol. i love God. like totally totally

His grace and strength never seems to amaze me

slept at 3am. woke at 5.20am

now i know how mel feels

and i know she doesn't rely on her own strength

i used to think that i can never be like her,

as though she is some superwoman.

but how wrong. cause God is the Superman

He is our superhero who will save us in times of need

who already saved us. and will continuously show us His salvation

anw thank God for min for keeping me awake today :)

i realised or rather reminded when God speaks a RHEMA to you

He will repeat the RHEMA and confirm it

like when God told me about giving me a new heart

He continued to speak to me about giving me a new heart

in the past few days, through different people

and even when God gives us a RHEMA, or maybe to us it seems like a LOGOS at that time

you never know how to it will bless people when you share it.

we are all called to edify and strengthen one another

and when we do so, when we water the lives of others, God will shower over us blessings and He will be the one who waters us :)

haha was reminded of my birthday..

honestly, i gave up having birthday wishes

cause it never happened for me

i told mel, i don't really even want to celebrate

birthdays were important to me before

but no longer..

if u ask me to have a birthday party now after so many years.

i would say no thanks.

unless u're gonna pay everything and do everything for me

LOL okay i'm financially tight now.

so i can't splurge on a party

but i'm not lazy okay.. i'll do for you if u want me to :)

just that i wun do it for myself..

2010-04-19T18:07:00.002+08:00

woke up at 4.30am today!

wouldn't have been so tired if i didnt sleep at 1am

haha! but it was worth it!

SDD was so awesome yesterday!

think maybe i've watched too much freestyle dance,

i didnt know what to look out for in these competitions

lol but i'm still learning!

and some of the effects they bring out as a crew is really very dope!!!

hope to be competing on stage some day :)

anyway, back to today.

took the second train from YCK at 5.25am

my goodness, my brain felt so squeezed and strained that i couldn't sleep even though my eyes refuse to open.

but i reached super early! about 6.23am?

but pastor is in the next level already. HAHA he reached at 6.10am

i think the prayer meeting was good!

when you are so tired and weary, you can't rely on anything except His grace and strength.

that's when you draw close to Him

that's when He can speak to you

pastor preached about the Book of Romans

though i kept dozing off, i think it was a really good message

i really like theology and history and stuff like that, i think they are very interesting.

but i think even if it is pastor ming today i'll fall asleep.

but God is good! presence of God was so strong in the second session.

fell on my knees again and He spoke to me.

new heart, new beginning, new life.

after that, no more sleepiness. but drunk in the Spirit. HAHA

anyway, went to DIY dye my hair again.

haha it's brighter now.

and my tenant was so nice to cut for me.

i think its nice. haha will see tmr :) second day of prayer meeting!

meeting guohao tmr! pray that it will be a good time of fellowship and catching up :)

2010-04-18T07:04:00.002+08:00

lol dots. woke up at 5am again.

maybe its like what ana said,

God is training me for next's week PM lol

had discipleship class with mel yesterday

i wonder how many times must i be reminded to be an armorbearer

it's like every time i'm remind, i run on for a while

and i fall and just stayed there. back to comfort zone.

again, like what john bevere preached.

satan will always try to get you offended.

and when u dun get submitted to ur leader,

when you not joined ur leader's vision

the flow of anointing gets cut off

i think bennie really preached at short yet v powerful sermon.

though i think i only caught on one thing:

"don't despise the little things and the small beginnings that you're in now.

instead be faithful in them so God can make you faithful in much"

read min min's blog just now..

i think what she said is true.

some things will just stay as what they are at, no more than that

i shouldn't even be dwelling on them now.

wake up!

going off to service now!

heard that they will be talking about forgiveness.

and that there will be deliverance session.

the word of forgiveness has been coming to me again and again...

problem was i never knew that i had not forgiven.

i think i'll be the first to be delivered.

i thought i had forgiven and the hurt was gone.

yet it had been just hiding behind all the stuff i used to cover it up

and it surfaced up when i was talking about it..

God, heal me today. touch me afresh :)

love you, my Daddy God

2010-04-14T14:45:00.013+08:00

lol :) blogging again! it's like 2 yrs plus? doubt anyone will find out HAHA

since they probably gave up on me.

Went through army.

Went through a whole relationship.

It's like a whole new world and a growing up marvin

Used to be so laid back in doing stuff

Been in SOT for the past one month.

my life has seriously been changed.

and my walk with God is better than ever before...

haha anyway, today was supposed to be mock cg for the SOT students

but those not involved get to take the day off :)

so i was listening to the song alicia lim sent me

單單歸於祢 (DI SETIAP NAFASKU)

我親愛救主

向祢獻上我的全部

一生跟隨我主

我生命祢緊緊握住

我全人全心

單單歸於祢

求充滿我靈

高聲敬拜祢

我王我的救主

我神我的天父

在我生命中每一天

向祢不住獻上讚美

將我所有一切

全擺在祢面前

在我生命中每一天

我要緊緊跟隨

直到永遠

_______________________________________________________________________________________________

I was so in love with the song that i decided to make an english version outta it

with some help from alicia :)

_______________________________________________________________

My beloved Savior

I place my all into Your hands

Follow You till the end

You hold my life within Your hands

And with all I am,

I belong to you

Come and fill me now

As I praise Your name

You are my Savior King

You are my Father God

And every day I want to live

To honor You with all my praise

So I lay down my life

A living sacrifice

And every moment of my life

I'll follow in all Your ways

Forever more

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lol. shall change my blog skin soon... when i manage to get my bones to move haha

whoo!

2007-12-12T14:29:00.000+08:00

whoo! saw this on someone's blog!
it's been quite a while since i did a trivia.
so here goes~

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Marvin Tang
Birth Date: 30th May 1989
Current status: Attached
Eye Colour: Brown
Hair Colour: Copper Rush
Righty or Lefty: Righty =(
Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Heritage: erm... Guangdong i think?
Your Fears: Backsliding
Your Weakness: Tickles!
Your Perfect Pizza: Hawaiian and pepperoni!
Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: whoo! isaac is calling me!
Your Bedtime: erm... 2am? haha
Your Most Missed Memory: erm... 30/11/2007
Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Old McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Both... A balance is good =P
Adidas or Nike: Adidas! Down to Nike!
Tea or Nestea: erm... just tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: as long as it's ice cream =)
Cappucino or Coffee: Coffee
Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: no way...
Curse: once in a very long while =X
Take a shower: i'm hygenic okay! unlike someone...
Have a crush: =D yeap! von!
Think you've been in love: I think so. i fell in love with God.. and now her O.O
Go to school: it's compulsory in singapore.
Want to get married: not ready yet... wait till i get over university with a stable job
Believe in yourself: most of the time =/
Think you're a health freak: No way i'm not bothered.
Layer Six: In The Past Month
Drank alcohol: Yeap. Vodka *slurps*
Gone to the mall: Of course
Been on stage: depending on how u define a stage
Eaten sushi: sadly, no =( i wanna eat sushi!!
Dyed your hair: YEAP! COPPER RUSH!!
Layer Seven: Have You Ever...
Played A Stripping Game: Kee siao.. of course no la!
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Yeap =(
Layer Eight: Age
You're Hoping To Be Married: erm. 20 plus? haha
For a Girl/Guy: erm. i'm already dating someone.
Layer Nine: In a Girl/Guy
Best Eye Colour: Brown
Best Hair Colour: Black/Brown
Short Hair or Long Hair: Shoulder-Length
Layer Ten: What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago: Doing this thing
1 Hour Ago: Taking my afternoon nap
4.5 Hours Ago: talking to von
1 Month Ago: MUGGING!
1 Year Ago: in china i think? haha can't rmb
Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love: God, N399, VON, my best frens =)
I Feel: Super excited! youth camp tmr!!
I Hate: Satan
I Miss: mel! she's coming back today! and of cuz her
I Need: God. Money. Love. Family. Friends. My dearest.
Layer Twelve: Tag Five People
1. Everyone who reads this x)
2. Shall not be that cruel
3. People who dun read wun even know anyway
4. How many people you want me to tag?!?!
5. STOP IT! STOP IT!!! oh it stopped? whheee!

2007-12-12T08:40:00.000+08:00

whoo! it's been a long time since i posted
but u gotta admit, the red dot entertained u quite a bit right?
hahahaha yeah let's start by talking about clair's bday
it was fun =) werewolf, wii, heart attack, jayden!!!
hahaha check out my msn dp and frenster
jayden is pastor ming's youngest son i think
and he is super cute and he likes me =D
his siblings(joshua jerome and janelle) are v cute too!
hahaha whoo! can't wait to see them again.
anw we spend the night wii-ing
from scary resident evil to rayman raving rabbids
it was tiring but fun ^^
and the bday gifts i get is nothing compared to wad others receive
rawr! haha but i still haf memorable bday experiences =)

after mel announced about me and von on sat,
seriously the first question when i meet up with people is something gotta do with her haha.
and since mel is overseas now,
the members are taking every chance to suan us
rawr! bite all of u!
anw it has been fun and memorable, these few weeks
i'm still a long way to go in getting to know her
wadever may happen in the future, i dun know
and i can't promise forever now,
but now, i'm loving her to bits =)

wheee! tmr is the youth camp!!
hahaha so exciting.
i'm still not properly mentally prepared though
all the running, games, blah blah blah.
first time spending the night with the cg haha
it's gonna be fun! we'll haf campfire cum bbq on friday night!
wheeee! can't wait!! yay yay!!
the last time i had a camp was for scouts... -.-"

2007-12-01T02:57:00.000+08:00

hahaha i saw this on someone's frenster profile
quite funny. keep pressing. gogogo! hahaha

2007-11-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

striking a balance;
affections and wisdom
growth and guarding
community and privacy
listening and speaking

thx mel for the book
i've learnt alot, and my perspective on relationships has changed since
i admit that it was at first just based on affections
but now it's guided with wisdom
and i still want to pursue it.
=)

anyway! my A levels ends here! today!
and i've finally gotten back my full freedom!
much thanks to those people who gave their prayer and support
especially when it was most inconvenient
i feel loved =)
i'm finally able to breathe freely now. haha
and i'm gonna stuff myself with activities throughout the holidays
gotta treasure my 51 days before i enter the army =D

2007-11-19T01:46:00.000+08:00

Jesus My Lord My Life

You take my hands
and lead me to Your side
Your warm embrace
sets my heart on fire
You are my shelter
God of all wonders
You are the Hero of my life

I live for you
the Savior of my life
Your love for me
is wider than the skies
You are my shelter
God of all wonders
You are the Hero of my life

You came for me
Your life for mine
when I can't save myself
You bore my pain
my sin my shame
Jesus my Lord my Life

just a song that came to my mind and i started singing
pastor phil was super good!
message was short but impactful! haha

first night: Last Supper (credits to clair)

Second Day: The Crucifixion of Christ

then we went to celebrate andesson's bday at newton

the men of n399: andesson, isaac, me

isaac laughing with jiankai trying to kill me

jump andesson!

finally, a good shot. but isaac is hiding!

btw, as you haf noticed, i dyed my hair copper rush
why? since i still haf another last paper
is cause it's 30% cheaper
and i can always use black hair spray
haha anyway God is super good.
amazing =)

2007-11-18T07:04:00.000+08:00

Hillsong United - All For Love

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

i just feel that it's a song that really my heart is singing
the love of Christ is supernatural
that it can only come from none but Him
who will pray for us of whom he was gonna die for because of our sins
us, unworthy, sinful, imperfect and stubbornly unrepentant.
yet Jesus PAID for our lives with His blood
with His life, He BOUGHT ours over from the devil
who are we to waste a life that rightfully belongs to Him
who are we to say that we are not able when the blood of Christ flow through us
but because He is a sovereign God and He gave us the chance of choice
and He did all that, that we might be saved,
freed from all past sins and bondages,
healed from all kinds of infirmities
and blessed with all the promises of blessings from God in the Bible
I feel fortunate to have a friend like Jesus, don't you?

lol. it's day 4 already
and i really feel i'm closing in alot to God
it can be tough sometimes,
but He always bring me out
and become even stronger
thank God for everything He has done in my life
help me to be patient, and guide me with ur wisdom
that i may put u first and glorify ur name
=) love You lots

2007-11-14T19:07:00.000+08:00

whoo! i'm smelling, seeing, tasting, hearing, touching freedom!
yay!!! phy mcq left!
and today's paper was good!
wowowowow! hahaha
yay i feel so good to be freed
went to jean yip to cut hair
first time paying so much (24 bucks) for a haircut
but it was good la.
good service and friendly people =)
will pamper myself once in a while
cannot every time
or i'll go broke. hahaha

2007-11-13T12:53:00.000+08:00

God has seen me through so many times
He will see me through again and again.
all i can do is to hold on tight to Him =)
i'm leaving it into ur hands.
for i've really done my best.
love u Daddy =)

2007-11-13T10:22:00.000+08:00

haha sorta figured out why my heart and mind is in a mess right now
my heart is telling me to go for it
my mind is pulling me back and telling me to give it some time
roar this is torturous hahaha
gotta get my head in the As

2007-11-13T02:16:00.000+08:00

sigh just wad is this consistent pain i feel in my heart
even when i'm not thinking about it. damn i'm falling in too deep.
draw the damned line marvin. pull urself together

2007-11-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

lots of stuff happened since the last post on butterfree hahaha
i'm not bothering to elaborate on some stuff.
overall, a lvls is quite good in my opinion
just that i probably suck at essays. lol.
the past week. is like the tsunami that hit earth on 2004 boxing day
i've been on the highest point of my life, yet slammed back down to the bottom.
kinda suck when i have to pick myself up every single time
thank God for always being there, or i would really be crazy right now
emotions in my mind right now:
doubt, confusion, disappointment, injustice, fear, anxiousness, impatience, wanting to give up,
yet at the corner of my heart, joy.
it's the joy and the hope of God that's making me hold on.
it's really hard to keep smiling at times, it really is.
and there's just too many things i dun understand.
yeah i cannot think about them becuz i've still got 2 more written papers to go
gosh someone really wants me down very badly.
i'll fight, and keep fighting till i win.
n399 is the best, a family God blessed me with.
love, care, unity, spiritual depth! 30 members!
let's go! =)

2007-10-03T06:41:00.001+08:00

hahaha omg. butterfree =) one of my favourites anyway
let's see. who knows wad's my favourite pokemon? hahaha

2007-09-29T20:31:00.000+08:00

yo! haha shall not blog v regularly due to upcoming exams
first time in my life i start studying so early before the major exams sia.
usually i study 1 or 2 week at most before. haha
anyway partly is becuz i'm super disappointed with my results la
i shall do exceedingly well for A lvls!
D S U U U to A A A A A! haha whack ah!

anyway, i had the most memorable Mid Autumn season this year!
hahaha friday went out with t26
super fun la. think i'm more united to them now =))
then sat and sun with n399. went to eat ben and jerry's!
hahhaaha love strawberry cheesecake flavour!
then tuesday went out again. woohoo!
super fun la!! haha but it's my last holiday so now is the rush hours haha

anyway today, i was not intimidated nor sad that mel's "scoldings"
i was utterly disappointed at myself.
i knew what was to be done. but why didnt i do it?
why did i let myself get caught up with pointless emotions?
complacency... weaknesses... fatigue... things that had always caused me to fall time and again.
but i realised, what's the point regretting wad has already past?
i gotta stand up and be strong again.
learn from my mistakes and never commit it again.
i wanna go back on course,
the marvin who was super on fire and super hungry for God just weeks ago.
God i need more of You. i really cannot make it without You.
jiayou. you're not alone. n399 is a team. the most loving and united cg!
my best frens =)

2007-09-18T10:11:00.000+08:00

wheeee! so long nv post hahahaha

prelims are over! but getting back results soon.

dunno wad the teachers are doing, taking soooooo long even to mark those done 3 weeks ago

anyway, let's start with the n399 barbeque outing

wah seh, super eventful hahahaha

at first i met up with erwin's grp at amk mrt

saw ziyan

then end up all the girls in the grp went off on their own

so i felt abit helpless but they end up finding their own way there haha

super fun skating around and struggling to catch up with those on bikes

though i fell down many times

but i think i'm getting a hang of it

then after all the games and stuff,

i shared my life testimony for the first time in my life haha

quite cool la. cuz it's really telling the truth and realising God is sooooo good haha

yeap, we had 19 frens in the end!

so yeap, we didnt have cg for two weeks!
i miss playing my guitar. it's still stuck at sean's place after the bbq
last sat we had "So You Think You Can Sing"
hahaha super fun doing the poster with mel.
though she did most of it over the night
but the posters are super nice (good job mel!) haha
we cheered like mad when isaac and max had their turn
but most of the finalists were good
so i guess the judges really had a hard time choosing the top 3
but in the end max got 3rd, isaac got 2nd!
some guy who is really good named wind won
oh wells. but we also won 2nd prize for the game! ahha big hamper!
all thanks to zhang xuan
and n399 got 70 dollars ben and jerry's voucher for being the best fan call!
wheeeee hahaha.

anyway. wanna reflect on some stuff
nick vivulcic came to gave his life story to encourage us in svc
he was without limbs. yet he strived to bring happiness to others with his smile
i'm really awed and inspired by his courage and strength
i, too, wanna be like him.
i wanna take the joy of the Lord as my strength
and radiate happiness to others
even if i may be stressed or troubled or tired
i've got to be strong =)
and on sunday,
i had been a little tired from prelims and stuff
and began to felt worn out with all the cg stuff
though i'm already taking very little.
i felt that well, maybe i'm not up to being the next-in-line leader.
but i realised, everything God does has a purpose and reason
there are plenty of people who can and are willing to
sean... isaac... and all those people whom i felt were stronger than i was
but why me? becuz God doesn't just see the present.
He see how i can lead the cg.
not by my strength or power, but by His Spirit.
yeap. I can do it!
haha okok that's all for now. can't think of anything else.
*smiles*

2007-09-03T15:20:00.000+08:00

woot let me update you on my weekend
saturday: cell grp! haha it was fun!
haha well, of cuz since n399 is in the house!
haha yeap and we gave mel a teachers' day card along with a angel clay bear sitting on a rainbow
made by Elaine and assisted by von =)
yeap!

shortly after cg,
Mel, Isaac and i rushed down to expo
with me in my full formal attire
haha well reason for my dress code will be revealed shortly
then right after we got our seats,
mel started to talking to me about humility
cuz i told her how i felt during manhood meeting
i'm glad i opened up to her la
i really learnt alot from that
praise and worship. well it was weird jumping up and down in suit haha
but when it came to worship,
i dunno wad came over me, presence of God was soooooo strong
that i could really felt him closing in face to face
i just wept, and wept.
God is good =)
and after that I went up stage(that's why i wore so formally)
to represent LYL zone to collect the CCF(Certificate of Christian Foundation)
yup that's that for sat.

sunday. woot grumpy taxi driver right in the morning
nagged all the way from amk to expo hall 8
and gave a farewell comment that i was "lucky" he was in good mood O.o
yeah it was mel's SOT graduation day!
all the SOT students were so excited
and we got to sit right next to them
it felt super exciting haha even though we have to go through 400 plus names and their nationalities
sadly i only manage to capture Mel's pic
and their team won the best team in SOT!
wheeee haha LYL rocks!
took lots of pictures after that.

So You Think You Can Sing Auditions
we went to support Isaac, Nicholas, Rachel and Max
they sang reeeeally well
i think they have a good chance of getting in =)
compared to many wannabes.
wish i had been able to join...

PaTH market! haha yeap i went over to volunteer with request from my cousin
it was really fun! it took quite a short while to get used to the store i'm tending to
but the people there helped alot! all of them were so nice and friendly
and Elim Chew did something that shocked me!
she saw the design on my jeans and looked at the brand and wanted to take a pic of my bum
ahhhh so embarassing la. i was there for barely 15 min and that happened haha
but it was fun la.
my store was selling teddy thotz products
http://www.teddythotz.com for more information
the products are super cute!
i would have bought them if i had enough money
and next to my store is a store selling angel clay!
and i found that they were Elaine's colleagues!
haha so cool right.
yeah it was a very very good experience for everyone
so please come down to PaTH market if you have a chance to take a look =)
it's really made to benefit the less fortunate
only available at 11am to 10pm every first and last weekend of the month
if you are interested in volunteering you can also ask me or just go straight down
it is at Vivocity 3rd level outside food republic.
don't miss it =]]]

2007-08-31T09:36:00.000+08:00

yeah! the first week of prelims is finally over!
i think this week is the most gruelling week
cuz if you are not studying, it hits you hard on how little you know
and that you should not waste any time during one week break
i think i can do well for everything except geog,
which was one paper yesterday
cuz i didnt really spend much time on it anyway
haha yeap

it's gonna be a fun week =)
i'm gonna study almost everyday!
haha i realised i've been meeting n399 people almost everyday for the past week
haha love them to bits really.

anyway 3M was good!
haha yeap i admit i am a little disappointed in some ways
but i learnt smth in quite a hard way
and dewen taught me smth also.
which i shall always keep in mind from now on
but the dinner session was... haha super fun
a little torturous also lol.
stuffed ourselves with food! but i love veggie
just that i didnt say it out becuz they will push everything to me
thanks mel for the meal =)
happy teachers' day =D

2007-08-27T12:37:00.000+08:00

prelims are here!
haha the weekends were GREAT
prayer meeting was powerful,
the service was super good for both days!
i'm really blessed to be in n399
=) the most loving and united cg!
let's really do it together ya?
the salvation for my family is coming
thank God haha i love Him
and i love n399, especially my leader and fellow helpers
you guys rock!

my eyes have been feeling itchy these few days
then i realised just now that i supposed to change my contacts
like 4 days ago! hahaha i forgot
it's much much more comfortable now
phew thank God no infection

and i heard there isn't much of a choice whether you wanna be commando or nt
and if you're a commando and you wanna go air force
you gotta sign on 20 long years
so i was like zzzzzzzzzzz haha
but oh well, i shall not sign on to army
i dun want scholarship le
i shall go work out my Marvin Tang Scholarship
application success rate 100%
exclusive for Marvin Tang only hahahaha
God will make a way =)
"money is the very last thing you got to worry about"
i so love God.

2007-08-23T16:05:00.000+08:00

lol the past one year alone.
wow so many things have happened!
it's really shows how amazing God is.
working bit by bit on my life
slowly yet sure changing and molding me to fulfill His calling for me
i stand in awe, in wonder of His Majesty
=) it's really really exciting to live this life of mine
especially when i get to work WITH the Holy Spirit
and walk in signs and wonders
lol

pastor Joshua Hong came for the prayer meeting on tues
his message is v powerful
and totally in season
we are to live a victorious life!
not by might nor by power but by His Spirit!
haha really, i can't believe it is so exciting
n399! with love and unity, we shall grow!
carebears of n399! hahaha i'm the birthday bear!
hahaha bs later. cya

p/s: commando assessment was good, i'm probably in but i wanna consider air force, will see how bah lol.

2007-08-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!! today is a good good day!!!
haha yesterday also!
yeah though mel went over to batam
i still managed to survive handling the cg =)
and some more i took testimony!
abit stressed, but i felt it was quite okay
must get used to talking to people like that
and joyce meyer talked about seizing the moment
live for the present. enjoy being who you are in Christ
change will only come when you really want change
and today, love!
the love revolution: to have everyone do at least one thing nice to somebody each day!
i'm gonna do it. i wanna love people more
N399 is the best! i really really love this cg
all of them are special in their own way
and it's so interesting to get to know them more
i believe the cg can be united as one and love will radiate off every single one of us!
and Mel's the best!!!

and oh ya! i got selected for commando vocational assessment
haha on tuesday...
though i know it's gonna be tough to be a commando,
i think it's very beneficial if you manage to persevere through lah
and if can get into OCS, then scholarship can just apply easily.
yeah! life can be exciting even if prelims are pressing in
i'm starting to feel quite stressed.
so i'm gonna start fasting and praying =)
and again, N399 ROCKS!

edit: and oh! i gave rayner BS today!
though it's my first time, it's quite fun actually
still got stuff to improve on though.
I can do it!

2007-08-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

GOD OF MY FOREVER - CHC

GOD OF MY YOUTH I REMEMBER
YOUR CALL ON MY LIFE TOOK ME O'ER
YOUR LOVE HAS SEEN ME THROUGH ALL MY DAYS
I STAND HERE BY YOUR GRACE

ON THIS ALTAR I'VE WRITTEN MY LIFE
TELL OF THE STORY I HAVE WITH YOU MY LORD
I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVED WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE REDEEMED MY SOUL
GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING

GOD OF MY LIFE I SURRENDER
MY HEART FINDS ITS REST IN YOUR WORD
PRAISES WILL NOT BE ENOUGH TO SHOW
HOW MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS GROWN

NOTHING MATTERS WHEN YOU’RE HERE WITH ME
IN THE END JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY “WELL DONE”
BOWING BEFORE YOUR THRONE

FOREVER AND EVER
JESUS YOU ALONE IN GLORY REIGN
FOREVER AND EVER
WITH YOU I’LL WALK THIS NARROW WAY

what a nice song =)
reminds me that God believes in me
much more than anyone else would
and in the end, even if i may fall,
He will just carry me back up
and say "well done, my beloved son"
indeed my greatest honor is to serve my lord and king
God really works in an amazing way
who would have known at the beginning of the year
that all of these is already planned for me
to rise up, to become so much stronger
to be able to speak and things will happen
but God is good =)

i went to cut my hair at kwan's unisex salon ytd
mel recommended it and i went there once long time ago
it has improved since then
the guy who was cutting my hair was quite professional
haha and all of that for $7
i feel sorry for my regular hairdresser though =P

oh yeah. my guitar teacher's band got into the 2nd round of 'live a dream'!
band name is 'after the rain' i think
all the members are from church! lololol cool man
must support them k? daniel (clair's cousin) is in it also

although prelims is nearing
and i'm studying like never before
i still think this is the most fun and exciting season in my life so far
FOP, A R Bernard, Joyce Meyer, then SOTM again
and CG!!!! mel is going for mission trips, so i haf to look after the people
gosh fun fun! haha

2007-08-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

yo. the pressure is coming in haha
especially after the career and university talks
makes me think more about my future
the scholarships i will need to take up,
the prospects of my future occupation and courses
yeah. 107 days more before i can finally loose up abit
and pour my life into serving my cg haha

the last cg as e402
we had potluck ytd =D
i helped my mum with cooking curry chicken
it was nice but too bad dun haf bowls so not many ppl ate haha
but i like my mum's curry
and really thank God for the opportunity i'm able to get closer to my mum
haha games was fun
i got sabo-ed the worst lah
just becuz i helped my team the most and scared the opponents
i got toothpaste all over my paste as forfeit ~.~
then end up my hair also kena
and when it hardens it is like wax la! zzzzzzzzzzz
haha but it was fun =)

Festival of Praise
good. super good. excellent!
though i couldn't go tonight cuz mel said so
the previous two nights were wonderful lah
can't wait for next year haha
love n399 =)

2007-08-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

Greater is He - Christian City Church

Who am I
That you wash my feet
Prince of heaven's blood shed for me

Who am I
That you called my name
Nailed my sin to a cross, unfailing grace

Greater is He who's in me
Greater are You than all the earth
My closest friend, my Saviour
So much more than I deserve

Let my life bring You honor
Let my words bring You praise
Your great love is all I want, Lord

My refuge, my shelter
My healer and rest
Almighty Redeemer
Salvation and strength

i love this song =)
the lyrics say it all.

i guess there's a season for everything
now is the season to study!
even though i might not be able to help out as much in cg
God said He will restore the time which has been lost
and i can still build relationship with the members
shine for God, I shall.
career day tmr =)

2007-07-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

yo. my annual flu is back.
always at this period of time
i dun like it at all.
i recall wad happen last year.
it was during mid years.
then my nose was very bad
it was dripping -.-"
i fell asleep during lessons and found my nose dripping wet
v sick. but this year isnt as bad
haha but still. it sucks haha

anyway, the order of multiplication was announced on sat
we are now E402 and N399
i'm currently in N399
v excited =) this is the first time i'm part of a new cg
haha wad's more i can start off as a helper
armorbearer! yeah =)
and i got yishi, lynn, von and isaac with me
and mel is my leader
they shall all be my best frens
i believe the cg is gonna be great =D

mike connell. wow. seriously.
thanks mel for helping me get the book
and elaine for lending it to me =)
it really helped me prepare myself haha
it feels so good la haha.
i thought saturday was v good.
but sunday was even better haha.
God never shortchanges us =)

2007-07-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

yes. finally back online and posting =)
i sorta missed coming online at first
but it felt sorta pointless and troublesome after a while
but yah wanna thank several people.
esp randy and yiwei
haha for helping me with my laptop
haha and also my dear parents and uncle daniel who has been providing for me
and to e402, for support, care, love and fun =)

multiplication.
i'm looking forward to saturday
i've never experienced it before but i feel its gonna be sad and happy
i hope i dun cry haha but yeah, i'll miss certain people
especially when we grew up together,
fought this fight of faith together
and i know, at the very end, we will still be buddies
right, sean? haha

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harry potter.
gosh i thought it was super anti climax la
the ending was BAD
it was exciting all the way until the last part when snape died
and harry found out he has to sacrifice himself too
and died.
i was like "~!@#$%^&*()_+"
then even worse,
he resurrected. -_-""
then he became a totally different person
so wise and skilled and strong
and killed voldemort
and after that it was 19 yrs later.
happy ending.
harry married ginny
3 kids. albus severus, james, lily
ron married hermione
2 kids i think. hugo and rose
draco malfoy married someone not mentioned
with a kid called scorpius
lupin and tonks died during the final battle
and had a boy called teddy tonks
who is going steady with victoire (who is probably the daughter of bill and fleur)
neville became a herbology professor.
i didn't feel much sadness in the deaths
it's like someone just died... then next thing draws your attention away
anyway, what happened to "fight, and keep fighting. for only then will evil be keep at bay"
rowling made it sound like harry defeated evil once and for all
bleh. i will re read the whole thing while i'm free
i always like the endings becuz there is always something at the end makes you wanna re read
and anticipate the next book. but now... zzzz
but yeah, on the whole it's a very nice book
rated 9.5/10 =)

2007-07-11T15:37:00.000+08:00

phew my muscles are all aching haha
gosh 20 pull-ups are already taking a toll on my body
haha and the abs exercise from MH is really working haha

my beloved phone died on me on saturday night during svc
and on the third day, it resurrected once again!
hahaha. praise God.
i almost wanted to bring it up to nokia shop that day.
i realise now i really cannot live without my phone
i've got to call and coordinate so many things that it can kill me if my phone dies haha

anyway, i was reflecting on my past once again.
and i realised that it might just be perfectly normal to not be sad when my parents divorced or even when my dad wasn't around
the thought came to my mind that because i thought couldnt trust anyone since i grew up seeing my parents fight and quarrel all the time
i might have shut myself out and didnt want to face wadever feelings or emotions i have inside
which was why i didnt have many friends either.
haha so really wanna thank God for working a miracle.

oh yeah i went for ns medical check up today.
i got pes A la.
damn they anyhow anyhow put ppl pes A wan haha
i hope i did well for my vocational test.

2007-07-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

ya post post haha.
lack of sleep.
ah... it's bad becuz i get grumpy/emo easily when i'm tired
how i wish it's still holiday though.

anyway i flunk my physics with a 24%.
i'm not surprised since i really dunno half of the paper
and the other half i only know abit of it.

gosh i really need to start staying awake during lectures.
or i'm gonna die in a lvls.
God help me T.T

cjc-chc first gathering
it was super tough trying to get everyone, so i just decided to get their contacts
and also the contacts of those they know and are supposed to come
we have 23 people in the school from church!
or at least that many we can find
there are quite a few new or low profile people around i think
haha but that's ok. we'll get more and more people soon

still a little stressed. almost everyday my schedule is packed
and i'm taking up even more leadership roles than before.
it's gonna be difficult if i do this alone.
i need to lean on God more.

cg and svc were good.
cg: i played for worship and gave the offering msg for the first time
was quite nervous though.
still have lots to improve for both sides
svc: exceeding righteousness. great sermon.
i think i've learnt alot this weekend.

i need a sabbath!

2007-07-03T13:16:00.000+08:00

wheee just played tennis with torrance
it was enjoyable haha.
especially when sean goes all out to hit the ball with not proper techniques and style
haha. but yeah, i prefer table-tennis more
but now i'm tired again. i have guitar practice later with mel and cy. geez

oh ytd, i went out with weiting, von, mel, aldo, seng, gh, vincent and sean in the afternoon
we played pool! haha aldo is pro la, even though it was only his fourth time playing
i won him quite luckily twice and lost twice, so we're even haha
i was quite accurate for long shots ytd haha
but all the easy shots i miss -.-"
then we went to eat chicken rice at lucky plaza for dinner
only weiting and von left when we went to heeren to fix sean's watch
but cy and hock wee joined us
and we continue to walk to ps
spent some time playing at yamaha, then went to watch cy and hock wee eat.
sina and yy and dewen joined us there becuz we were going for movie
so i sent weiting and von off (sry i can't sent you two home cuz i can't duplicate myself haha)

we watched transformers!
it was super cool
cuz of the graphics and moderately nice humour
it's worth watching if you ask me. a definite four star
just that there are some parts that are not clear. yup.
ah. tired.

2007-07-02T01:49:00.000+08:00

wah seh i'm extremely tired.
it's been a long long time since i felt body aches,
and the appreciation of a comfy bed and sleep
i slept at 3am ytd and woke up at 6.45am
went to help out spelling bee so that the cg can haf good seats again haha
then i was almost falling asleep during the sermon but i didnt la.
cuz got alot of notes to take
haha then after that i rushed to the a lvl meeting
i hurried down to my cg hoping that there is a chance to fill my stomach
end up i haf to go back to hall 1 to move the chairs already
so... free hard labour for the next 4 hrs
i promptly fell asleep when i had the chance at the end of it
haha

tmr i'm gonna go out to play pool and watch movie!
finally some recreational activities hahahaha =P
yay~!

2007-07-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

haha today started out bad =(
i set my alarm at 10am
i was supposed to meet randy at 11am at amk mrt to pass him my laptop
and go for cg at 12.30am to prepare
i woke up at 12am.
panicked, rushed out wearing my specs cuz got no time to lose
waited 10 mins for cab.
reached amk at 12.45pm and passed the laptop to randy
waited till 1.30pm for a stupid cab
(i tried calling a cab but ended up holding on to the call for 30 mins and the stupid program says "sorry, there is no available cab at the moment, please try again later" and hanged up)
reached cg place at 2.10pm
then comes the fun lol.

i led games today!
haha i name the game "scissors paper stone: team battle v1"
i shall not go into details because it's kinda complicated to explain but simple to play
but the members seemed to haf fun.
which was good =)
anyway, cg atmosphere. crap it could have been much better
thank God i went for svc after that.
because worship was v good (i came in only during worship lol)
the moment i went in i felt the presence of God flowing already
and while worshipping in the spirit, i felt God show me some things la
i saw myself as a kid kneeling worshipping Him at the bottom of the stairs where He sat on His throne on high
then He came down from His throne, picked me up and we sat on the steps talking
then He carried me up onto the throne and i just sat there like a child on the father's lap talking
then i saw myself running a race
God was at the finishing line, cheering me on
then i began to feel tired and wanted to give up
then He ran down beside me and push me and run with me
haha somehow those two visions i had really touched my heart la. yup =)

yeap. God turned a bad day into a good day for me haha.

2007-06-29T03:15:00.000+08:00

today was a good day
we accomplished quite alot of things
quite sad to hear that we may not be doing harvest highlights anymore
except for special occasions or during holiday
e402 is going to multiply soon
i know i wun be with sean
i used to stay in church and not backslide because he was still around
i'm old enough to not to need him around all the time
'sides he is still my cousin and close fren who i'll still hang out with and talk to
yet sometimes i feel i can do better without him around all the time lol
i dunno how else i'm gonna be with,
but i think it will feel like a stranger in a new cg now
i need to get to know more of the members =)
revival.

CJC prayer meeting.
gosh it was supposed to be later on in the day
then we found out that we were too late book riverwalk
and i didnt want to use anyone's house so not to disturb or be an inconvenience to anyone
it is gonna happen.

i need to pray more, and pray hard.
i'm hungry, but not hungry enough.
God, please sustain me.

2007-06-28T02:24:00.000+08:00

yay! my new blog skin is up!
much thanks to clair!
anyway some parts of it is not really complete
please bug me to post so it won't become dead again.
tired >.<

2007-06-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! hahaha
blog dead. i'm trying my best to revive it
and i'm trying to put this blog under construction now
i know you guys are bored of the crown,
but so sorry.
i'm a amateur when it comes to picture editing
anyway, it's been a loooooooong time since the last post
many things have changed and many people have grown(including me!)
so let's start feeling you guys in.

starting with... CJ Orientation 2: Remix!
i got through the interview and became a facilitator/OGL!
and it was lots of fun with IG8 and 1T08
and also the facils and tejano lol
learnt alot, helped me to become bolder in some ways
although sometimes i do things still abit too extra lol
yeap. next up, POS

wow whee JC/CI cluster is the best haha
especially when your best friends are in there
and when you are in there you make some more good friends
yang hong, merrill, rolland, brandan, wei lin =)
won't forget you guys
you've impacted my life one way or another. really!
and JC revival really will happen.
like yang hong said, it just takes one man or one woman to step out
i'm beginning to step out of my comfort zones and go into leadership positions
it's quite heart wrenching but i got to do it.

and oh yes. E402.
did i say how much i love this cg?
haha so far i've already had two fun-filled outings with them
and it's only been a month plus since i've joined them
a totally life changing experience it has been
haha, but it is gonna multiply soon.
i'm rather excited because multiplication is something i've not experienced before >.<
but with new chances to rise up in cg and in school,
it's gonna be tough! but i will not lose the passion!
and meanwhile i'll still have to study and my social life
=) fellowship is important haha

yup. i managed to scrape through mid years, i'm going all out for a levels!
do pray for me yup.
and i'm concentrating on God, so stop trying to matchmake me, thank you very much
till next time, bye!

2007-02-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all
haha my Chinese New Year this time was admittedly not as fun as compared to the previous years
there was no visitation to the Liews and the Lins
therefore no games, not much laughter
only a little bit of Deer Hunter and Starcraft at Sean's house with Andy and Sean
I've gotten my contact lenses and am quite comfortable with them
and it helped me with a lot of stuff
and also i think as a result my bowling improved as well
i finally got past the 200 score mark
with like X 6/ X X 8/ X 9/ 9/ 9/ X 8/
and the final score was 206!

I was playing with Milton and I was the second M
sorry it is blur because my hands were shaking with excitement
we lost the chance of getting 4 dollars for more
because we didn't know of the Chinese New Year event
or rather how to take part

dun ask me... I saw it at Takashimaya with Tai Tai and I just thought it was cute and it was about bowling
though it is a girl there lol...

I just finished watching the grand finale of the O.C...
I know it's not like me to watch this kinda show
where everything is just unrealistic
and you live a lifestyle with everything that you want
and do everything you want
and everything seems to happen to you
but yeah i did caught on to that show since season 1
and all the way till season 4...
it seems like a long way... and so many things happened haha
in the beginning... Marissa Cooper was with Luke
then Ryan Atwood came in and they started being together
Seth Cohen was an social outcast due to his geeky looks
and never had much self confidence and was already in love with Summer Roberts
whereas Summer, who was a bimbo, never noticed Seth
until Summer found that she was in love with Seth after an encounter
and Seth fell in love with Anna Stern as well
but ended up with Summer
Julie's was having affairs with Kirsten Cohen's dad Caleb Nichol and got together in the end
after divorcing Jimmy Cooper and Kaitlin Cooper was just a kid
and Sandy Cohen was a public defendant and Kirsten was working at the Newport Group
at the end... Marissa died in season 3
Ryan got together with Taylor Townsend who appear as their arch rival in season 3 too
and got into Berkeley College which is known for excellent placement of graduates
and apparently became an architect
Seth was no longer an outcast but in my opinion a very cool dude
got into RISD(Rhode Island School of Design) which is one of the best art schools in the United States
and got married to Summer who is now an environmentalist
and a very changed and mature girl
Julie married Frank Atwood who is also Ryan's father
and bore a child and got a degree in business (woah!)
and Kaitlin also graduated from Habour High to Williams College
which is like the best Liberal Arts College in the United States
the Cohens moved to Berkeley at their old home
with an added Sophie Rose Cohen (named after Sandy's mother Sophie Cohen)
Sandy became a lecturer in a law faculty (I think! since he wrote about Habeas Corpus)
and Kirsten is now a full time housewife
Many things happened in between the period of time
and to a significant extent, it had also helped me grow in some good ways
haha yeap...
that's all for now then...
see you all ^^

2007-02-14T00:18:00.000+08:00

woot it's valentine's day again!
wow i am sooooo happy
because i am gonna spend it with my love(bowling) hahahaha
lol im still the same... dun dare ask anyone out on valentine's day
haha maybe i'll try some last minute approach hahaha
have a happy day to all couples or couple wannabes ^^

2007-02-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

yay my 100th post haha!
my room is currently in a mess now!
my mum shifted everything except my bed
and bought a 1k wardrobe which is empty (lol)
i rather have a bigger bed like sean's though
i always like to lie on a big space haha

lol somehow this year...
i have so many things that i want to do
but its like really alot haha
gotta learn to manage my time and finance...
then this year will really be super fulfilling
and it is definitely gonna be the best year yet!
i can feel it! haha

i feel like changing the template but no one to make pics for me
and i've got no idea wad format it shud be...
so for now i just keep until someone nice give me a surprise haha
guess that's all for now...
oh ya i gonna get my contacts lens on thursday
hope i dun get eye infections like yiwei
eye balls popping out haha

2007-01-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

haha im posting twice within 24 hrs...
but within this short period there had been some permanent and big changes
to me and my cg...
ariel left us in yilun's care
as she will be too busy with taiwan mission trips
then she cannnot manage her time for us
it suddenly struck me, the feeling i havent had since my teacher left when i was young
but of cuz i didnt cry and vomit like i did b4 haha
although the girls were bursting in tears
the guys tried their best not to cry
(other than sean who always looks indifferent haha)
i tried my best to keep a smile and be strong

alot of things came into my mind
all the memories i had with ariel the last 2 yrs
wad i have not done tt she told me to do
wad would happen next...
it suddenly struck me how unpredictable tmr can be
even for me
but after all all things will work out for good
which should make the unpredicability fun...
but ariel leaving really does affect me alot
a chinese proverb says tt
"births, deaths, farewells are all part and parcel of life"
i guess this will be once when we part ways

to e337:
i won't say don't cry
but after you are done
stand up and be strong
there are millions of people waiting for you
there is a calling and a destiny for you to fulfill
there is a name for you to bear
we've got to pick ourselves up and move on

2007-01-27T07:16:00.000+08:00

wooohoo i felt like blogging again
though probably no one reads this blog anymore
but haha who would haf thought i would get high
at like 7am in the morning hahaha

its 2007! man so many things happened already
since 27 days ago when ppl celebrated for the clock to tick 12 o'clock
i went beijing during dec!
somehow i expected beijing to be a better place haha
but its the snowboarding/skiing tt made the trip fun
although i had temporary trauma from dangerous falls
and also sidetrips to hospital for andy's mum
oh oh and also sean's mum scolding and grumbling
every single day
haha but at least it was fun with daryl sean and andy

oh oh and michele came to cjc!
haha clair went to sajc and sean didnt make it to cjc but to srjc
i like the feeling of having real nice frens in my school lol
and for those 1t03 ppl (if u ever read this)
michele is more like a lil sister and nothing close to a girlfriend haha

bowling!! im sorta addicted to it now
haha uncle denny (our sch coach)
started teaching us about bowling theories
and training our aiming in order to bowl whatever lines he want us to bowl next time
lol last week i ALMOST hit 200 la!
i was like strike spare strike spare doubles spare until the end
then last frame... dunno why! my concentration MUZ blur out
maybe due to the stress building from 10+ ppl watching and cheering
i got 6 for tt frame... and didnt not hit 200 T.T
dang i gotta break tt barrier
and yesterday, my body was aching so badly i practically didnt bowl well at all

guess that's all for now ^^
when i get the mood again i'll post haha

2006-12-04T17:35:00.000+08:00

i gotta post so... here you go

Level 1
[x] smoked a cigarette
[ ] smoked a cigar
[ ] done weed
[ ] kissed a member of the same sex - for the fun of it
[x] drank alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
[x] been in love
[ ] been dumped
[ ] shoplifted-the fun of it.
[ ] been fired
[x] been in a fist fight

SO FAR: 4

Level 3
[x] snuck out of a parent's house
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] been arrested
[ ] made out with a stranger
[ ] gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 6

Level 4
[x] had a crush on an older person
[x] skipped school
[ ] slept with a co-worker
[x] seen someone/something die

SO FAR: 9

Level 5
[x] had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTER friends
[ ] been to Paris
[ ] been to Spain
[x] been on a plane
[x] thrown up from drinking

SO FAR: 12

Level 6
[x] eaten Sushi
[x] been snowboarding
[ ] met someone BECAUSE of myspace
[ ] been mosh pitting

SO FAR: 14

Level 7
[ ] been in an abusive relationship
[ ] taken pain killers
[x] love/like someone right now
[x] laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[x] made a snow angel

SO FAR: 17

Level 8
[ ] had a tea party
[x] flown a kite
[x] built a sand castle
[ ] gone puddle jumping
[x] played dress up

SO FAR: 20

Level 9
[ ] jumped into a pile of leaves
[x] gone sledding
[x] cheated while playing a game
[x] been lonely
[x] fallen asleep at work/school

SO FAR: 24

Level 10
[ ] used a fake/someone else's ID
[x] watched the sunset
[x] felt an earthquake
[ ] killed a snake

SO FAR: 26

Level 11
[x] been tickled
[x] been robbed/vandalized
[ ] robbed someone
[x] been misunderstood
[ ] pet a reindeer

SO FAR: 29

Level 12
[x] won a contest
[x] been suspended from school
[x] had detention
[x] been in a car/motorcycle accident

SO FAR: 33

Level 13
[ ] had/have braces
[x] eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[x] had deja vu
[x] danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 36

Level 14
[x] hated the way you look
[x] witnessed a crime
[x] pole danced
[x] questioned your heart
[ ] been obsessed with post-it notes

SO FAR: 40

Level 15
[x] squished barefoot through the mud
[x] been lost
[x] been to the opposite side of the world
[x] swam in the ocean
[x] felt like you were dying

SO FAR: 45

Level 16
[x] cried yourself to sleep
[x] played cops and robbers
[x] recently coloured with crayons/coloredpencils/markers
[x] sang karaoke
[x] paid for a meal with only coins

SO FAR: 50

Level 17
[x] done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[x] made prank phone calls
[x] laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[ ] kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 53

Level 18
[ ] written a letter to Santa Clause
[ ] been kissed under a mistletoe
[x] watched the sun set with someone you care/cared about
[x] blown bubbles
[x] made a bonfire on the beach

SO FAR: 56

Level 19
[x] crashed a party
[x] have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
[x] gone roller skating/ blading
[x] had a wish come true
[ ] humped a monkey

SO FAR: 60

Level 20
[ ] worn pearls
[x] jumped off a bridge
[ ] screamed "penis" at a football game.
[ ] swimming with dolphins

SO FAR: 61

Level 21
[x] got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
[ ] kissed a fish
[ ] worn the opposite sexes clothes
[x] Sat on a roof top

SO FAR: 63

Level 22
[x] screamed at the top of your lungs
[x] can do a one-handed cartwheel
[x] talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x] stayed up all night

SO FAR: 67

Level 24
[ ] picked and ate an apple right off the tree
[x] climbed a tree
[x] had/been in a tree house
[x] are scared to watch scary movies alone

SO FAR: 70

Level 25
[ ] believe in ghosts
[ ] have/had more then 30 pairs of shoes
[ ] gone streaking
[ ] been in jail

SO FAR: 70

I've done 70 out of 125 crazy things
LOL right

2006-10-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

lol i realised its been a while since i've blogged...
ok tts an understatement... its been really long
hasnt it? haha

many things have passed... promos were one of them
my life took ups and downs like a sine curve...
haha but the good thing about this sine curve
is that the amplitude gets larger and larger...
my problems may get tougher and tougher
yet my strength also grew day by day
one big change is that i've become so concious of God
in most parts of my life
i realised that no matter how alone i felt
there is always someone there to encourage me
and whenever im happy
someone is cheering with me, for me

im a person who thinks alot
naturally 'astray' it will go
but unconciously God kept feeding thoughts into my mind
to keep me strong in Him
and after that then i realised it wasn't just me who was fighting
there were times, i got 100% struck down
i didnt know what to do, what would happened
somehow i was strong enough to grit my teeth and just believe
and indeed His favour and grace pulled me through

i saw my dear frens sad
i felt helpless
i did every bit i could to try to cheer them up
i realised the pain they could feel just by talking to me
a person who did not go through what they went through
i stayed as a friend
who will laugh together and cry together and grow up together

i didnt fulfil alot of my responsibility
i lacked that discipline
and im still lacking alot of it
im sorry to those i may have offended or upset
im still learning =)
to smile, to make you smile
lol i think i'm just ranting...
but whatever i just didnt want this blog to die

2006-10-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate

Our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that’s within us

And as we let our own light shine

We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

-Marianne Williamson

2006-09-12T14:22:00.000+08:00

One More Moment - Sun Ho

Don't take too long
to say "I love you" to
the ones you love
'cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out of the clear blue sky
when lightning strikes
on a sunny day
just take me in
and keep me from the rain

And the words that seems
so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
just stay a little while and hear me say

that I want you here tonight
and I need you by my side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye
to each and every word that passes by
like a distant memory
and time came slipping away
and time will turn to grey
and time will be the one who holds you down

And the words that seems
so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
just stay a little while and hear me say

that I want you here tonight
and I need you by my side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment
and I want you here tonight
and I need you by my side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment with you

sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know what's wrong
and in the end it hits you hard
please tell me you'll be strong

sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know what's wrong
and in the end it hits you hard
please tell me you'll be strong

2006-09-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

wooohooo!
my sept holidays ROCKED man haha
i think this is one of the few holidays that is really fun throughout
and a break from school(not studies)
haha
friday: went to steff's hse for extra maths... went through b4 juz sorta revising
saturday: cg... lol michele's special concoction
sunday: svc and charity fun bowl(6th team placing...)
monday: sleep 12 hrs and study 8 hrs and play 4hrs
tuesday: same thing (was dead bored already)
wednesday: went out with clair to shop for rayner's present and had dinner with chee wee at seoul garden (felt like a complete gooseberry but oh well... im used to it) then went to sean's hse for stayover
thursday: woohooo cg non-outing at sean's place! haha FUN was the only word to describe it...
friday: study and play and sleep =)
saturday: went to do patrol duty for service... quite fun haha cuz can hear sermon from outside
sunday: svc then after that we ate at popeye's then go study at michele's hse while sean and michele kept bickering (ahem!) haha...
dun feel like going back to school =P

2006-09-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

http://www.theage.com.au/news/National/Croc-Hunter-Steve-Irwin-died-instantly/2006/09/04/1157222051588.html
nooooo steve irwin died!!!
sobs i loved him on tv...
he is like the best documentator and produces very interesting and informative documentaries
and he died just like that...
sigh... stupid stingray... =(
sobs... he makes all the dangerous animals sound so cute...
sigh... *bows and salutes to steve irwin, a man of courage and passion*
rest in peace...

2006-08-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

haha... i emptied 2 of my tissue box on monday...
nv cried so badly before... but i felt released and freed
i was talking to sean on msn...
then it's like suddenly i decided to open up to him
he told me that this walk with Jesus is not as hard as i think
it is just to overcome all those distractions and follow Him that is hard
which is why we 'labour to seek His rest"
he reminded me... that i am no longer living this life for myself...
Jesus bought this life of mine with His blood
that i will live for Him
and i belong to Him
sometimes darkness just encompass us...
and we fail to see the Light in us
but He is still in us
we just have to be still...
and know that even in the toughest times, we are not alone

these few days were quite tough for me...
i felt backstabbed and disliked...
but then today as i was talking to a friend that i knew long time ago...
i started reflecting on the past...
i found that... there are so many blessings in my life...
and i can barely rmb the bad times in my life...
then i rmb the 'footprints' poem...
through all the tough and difficult times...
He is carrying me through...
and He is my feet when i cant move on...
i am not walking alone...
never going to be...
for He will never ever leave me...

God Loves You - Jaci Velasquez

In the quiet, love is reaching.
It's yours to hold,
Be still and know that
Even when you're lost and lonely,
And hope is gone, you're not alone.

Far beyond the understanding,
There's a hand that leads,
If you believe.

Through the darkness, see the light.
Remember God loves you.

The road ahead is long and winding.
With eyes of faith, you'll find the way, yeah.
And when the journey leaves you weary,
You can rest in the comfort of heaven's arms -
Sweet loving arms.

And peace will follow.
Peace be with you always,
As you go.
For now you know that...

Through the darkness, there's a light.
Remember God loves you.

When you open up your heart,
His love will meet you where you are.
He will always be a part of everything you do.
He is here to set you free,
And give you all the strength you need
To carry on, to carry on.

Through the darkness, see the light.
Remember God loves you. (remember, remember)
Remember God loves you.

2006-08-22T23:55:00.000+08:00

well this is the last thing you ask me to do... so i think i'd do it...
and again... i'm sorry...

Instructions:
1) Do the following without complaining.
2) Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3) Leave a tag on the person's tagboard saying he/she has been tagged.
4) Start the post with "i've been tagged by..." and do the following.

-FAVOURITES
colour: blue
food: loads... but how bout some claypot frog legs
song: Jesus is my song
sports: basketball, bowling, tennis
day: i guess that's got to be everyday... especially when i feel Jesus with me all day long ^^
season: winter! since singapore doesn't ever has that...
ice-cream: chocolate chip or vanilla

-CURRENT
mood: erm... a little mixed up lol... i feel released and happy after last night... yet i feel shitty due to something else
taste: cup noodles?
clothes: Pelandok 04 Scout PE shirt... with my torn-up OP shorts
desktop: my computer? radio and some books CDs and worksheets
annoyance: the humidity level in my room?

-FIRSTS
best friend: alan? probably because i didn't know sean much then... or maybe siewleng... forgot
crush: erm!!! i don't remember! those days are back in when i was in K1 or K2 lol... after that i went on a 10 year abstinence in a boys' school =P
movie: i only know i watched it on video tape... either lion king or 10 brothers or some jet li show
lie: erm... it should be "i feel like vomitting, can i not go to school today?"
music: errr? twinkle twinkle little star~

-LASTS
-cigarettes: about... maybe 18 years ago my mum might have smoked lol
drink: HMMM Yeos' Soyabean Drink i think
ride: bus?
movie: erm... click...? if on my comp... intial d or sky high
CD: sonicpraise

-HAVE YOU EVER??!
dated one of your best friend: errr... i guess i shouldn't talk about it
been arrested: erm interrogated by police, yes... arrested? i saw someone got arrested before =P
been on tv: erm yeah... they broadcasted me worldwide over the internet during my easter surprise last year =/
kiss a stranger: omg... i've only been kissed by aunties when i was young =P

-4 THINGS U DID TODAY
1. went to school?
2. rejected my class' invitation to play dota
3. took a bus home together with 3 of my classmates who dao-ed me... com plete ly =)
4. played hexic

-4 SOUNDS YOU CAN HEAR RITE NOW
1. my clock ticking
2. my fan
3. keyboard?
4. the ringing silence

-5 PPL THAT I'VE CHOSEN
1. sean
2. clair
3. torrance
4. qian jun
5. jasmine (i wanted to put ariel but i figure she would kill me lol)

2006-08-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

dun ask me... im juz bored and i took it off steff's blog

1. Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's (example: 1, 2, 3, 4, ...)
2. Repost as "I have lived through ___ of these 158 things."

I HAVE LIVED THROUGH 104 OF THESE 158 THINGS
[1] I have read a lot of books. (marv: this is quite relative isnt it?)
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[2] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. (marv: think so?)
[3] I have been to Canada.
[ ] I have been to Europe.
[4] I have watched cartoons for hours. (marv:i have childhood wan k?)
[5] I have tripped UP the stairs. (marv: it was painful)
[6] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs. (marv: it was worse)
[7] I have been snowboarding/skiing. (marv: wheee i wanna go whistler!)
[8] I have played ping pong.
[9] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[10] I have seen fireworks. (marv: every single year =P)
[11] I have seen a shooting star.
[12] I have seen a meteor shower. (marv: actually i saw a shooting star followed by the meteor shower)
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[13] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[14] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[15] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there. (marv: whos tt dumb?)
[16] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects. (marv: dun remind me)
[ ] I currently have a job.
[17] I have been ice skating.
[18] I have been roller blading.
[ ] I have fallen flat on my face.
[19] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[20] I have been in a fist fight.
[21] I have watched the Power Rangers. (marv: go go power rangers! i have their theme song in my zen =P)
[22] I attend Church regularly.
[23] I have played truth or dare.
[24] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[25] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[26] I've called someone stupid.
[27] I've been in a verbal argument.
[28] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[29] I've played soccer on a team.
[30] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[31] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[32] I've climbed a rock wall.
[33] I've lost more than $20.
[34] I've called myself an idiot.
[35] I've called someone else an idiot.
[36] I've cried myself to sleep.
[37] I've had (or have) pets.
[38] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[39] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[40] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[41] I've owned a backstreet boys CD.
[ ] I've mooned someone. (marv: wads mooned?)
[42] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[ ] I've been in the newspaper.
[43] I've been on TV.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[44] I've eaten sushi. (marv: sakae sushi ftw!)
[45] I've been on the other side of a waterfall. (marv: yeap the biggest one ever... niagara falls)
[46] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[47] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[48] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[49] I've been called a geek. (marv: dom calls me imba everyday)
[50] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[51] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[52] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[53] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[54] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[55] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[56] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[ ] I've had/have siblings.
[57] I've been to a rock concert.
[58] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[59] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[60] I've cried in front of my friends.
[61] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[ ] I've played Halo 2.
[62] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I've been to Alaska.
[63] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[64] I've had a fight with someone on msn.
[65] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[66] I've had serious conversations on any IM.
[67] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[68] I've been forgiven.
[ ] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[ ] I've cried at a chick flick.
[69] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[70] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[72] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[73] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[74] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[75] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[ ] I've been in a car accident.
[ ] I've done drugs.
[76] I've been homesick.
[77] I've thrown up.
[78] I've puked on someone.
[ ] I've been horseback riding.
[79] I've filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys. (marv: smack PW!)
[80] I've spoken my mind in public.
[81] I've proved someone wrong.
[82] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg. (ankle counteD? haha)
[ ] I've broken an arm/fingers.
[83] I've fallen off a swing.
[84] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight.
[85] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[86] I've come close to dying.
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[87] I've known someone who has died.
[88] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I've done modeling.
[89] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[90] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[91] I've realized how good my life is.
[92] I've counted my blessings.
[93] I've made fun of a classmate.
[94] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[95] I've slapped someone in the face.
[96] I've been skateboarding.
[97] I've been back stabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[98] I've lied to someone in their face.
[99] I've told a little white lie.
[100] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[101] I've fainted.
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[102] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[103] I've been pushed into a pool.
[104] I've been/am in love

2006-08-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

lol ok finally had the urge to post after reading from the start again lol
let me update you about my life lol

School:
well... i have been studying alot lately... mostly because of grace
lol and trying my very best to absorb as much information from my lecturers as possible
well we just had national day... so my lazy bone is acting again...
i don't feel like studying... but i have to... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

National Day:
lol sean and i had a super fun time at daryl's house
we played dota together in the morning with andy
haha retardedness...
oh yeah they started mixing peace absolute vodka with juices
watermelon juice and celery juice -.-"
then we played taboo while they drank the vodka...
and as you should know, i don't drink
i did became a little brave and tried a sip of super diluted vodka and wine
but i still didn't like it
haha taboo was fun...
but we played till we were so tired and we slept like logs

CG:
we were supposed to have an outing today...
but the attendance was... horrible so we postponed it
i think it is partly my fault that i procrastinated the planning and stuff
but oh man... i don't feel sad or anything because andy suddenly popped up at sean's house and we played dota (again)

Grace:
hmmm wad to say?
lol all's well ^^
our 'honeymoon period' is ending soon i guess =P
3 more days till 1st monthsary =)

too tired to post =P till next time!

2006-07-12T22:45:00.000+08:00

lol... many things are gonna pile on me...
but im sorta ready for it...
my results so far
maths - 60 B
GP - 49 E
chinese - 56 C
Physics - 37 F =(
firstly i gonna start chionging study...

i was promoted in BBG to be CO-WL
means my responsibility is quite high becuz i am the most active
along wif other members and the WL is unavailable
so i haf to take care of my members

and some other personal stuff =P
and spiritual stuff =)

2006-07-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

RWARRRRRR
heh feeling better after one bloody mth of down down down down down =)
thank God for frens haha

k la... throughout this one month...
alot of revelations came by also...
one of the nicest one is tt wadever you do
who ever u are and where ever you are
it really really juz comes down to just you and Him
its like... coming down to a point tt really nothing else matters except drawing closer to Him
then He brought me to a familiar verse... seek first the kingdom of God
then somehow... i realised wad issit really like...
seeking His kingdom and righteousness

at first... i was quite fed up wif the cell grp
i felt as though im no longer included in it...
my bday also not everyone cared bout it
and sean WAS everything tt i wanted to be
and i was jealous and stuff
and my mum kept making me irritated due to something

yeah but now... i feel like im breaking thru into a whole new lvl...
i know i haf my own special purpose in this world from God
that i know this life i walk... its juz me and Him tts shud come first
He wants me to look at the good things he placed in my life
rather than those things tt seems bad
every time i settle down and worship... i can feel myself entering into His courts
dancing and dancing... around the throne and juz worship
and sometimes i will juz go onto His lap like a child to his father
and talk and talk
its like... so fun... and so good =)

and also... i started playing maple again (dun call me lame cuz i know u guys dun like it)
but yeah... it is also another place i found new frens and good frens
i joined the Black Bandana Guild (BBG)
yeah and i started attending their outings and stuff and soon i got to know fen and grace and also some other frens like sze yong and jeremy... it was one thing tt kept me from falling into depression throughout this mth ba...

this world may seem bad, may seem hopeless...
but look at the good things u ever have
not the bad things u r experiencing
look on the bright side...
some times... u juz need a lil optimism
and u find urself different
more confident and more mature
no matter how dark the night may be
the sun will always rise
and wadever bad things that may happen in the night
learn from it and forget about it and live ur brand new day to the fullest
this way... u will nv regret it... =)

2006-05-29T21:46:00.000+08:00

have you ever been excited waiting for something to happen
then when it is gonna happen u dread it happening
well tts wad im feeling right now...
somehow i wish tmr dun come
how i wish i can postpone it
dammit! why muz all these things happen!
and today, i bowled like a noob
104 108 110 120
like wadda heck
we were the last in the whole of south zone
my dad didnt help
and i crashed my ball into my ankle
leaving a bruise there, small, but concentrated

tmr... wad am i gonna do... freak i feel like running away nw
i dun even haf a proper plan for tmr...
and tt small lil plan i haf is full of places it might screw up
shudnt haf organised anything in the first place
why was i so excited anyway
it comes every year anyway
nothing to be happy bout
why did i even think of throwing a party

my lousy plan for tmr
(if can) go sch at 8 and play bball
10am go for make maths lesson
1pm go meet michele and sean and maybe zarah at marina sq
go kbox/bowl
then 7pm go back to sean's hse for dinner
after tt if it is ok we go watch movie or smth
then we will see hw after tt
lol... even i can see all the errors in my planning
but i cant change alr! omg i wanna die T.T
and its supposed to be a happy day? sigh

2006-05-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

lol this few days very tired
even though i slept quite alot
i just felt super restless...
but yeah... today was good...
the prayer meeting did fill my heart
and somehow peace just flowed into my heart
i always thought peace meant my heart start to feel empty and problemless
but it is being filled with peace, not emptied
today tt feeling came in
its an incomprehensible joy, like the ones i felt b4
but somehow i forgot about it...
i need to go back to the Word

yeah... today supposed to go and watch the da vinci code
but michele wanted to go and we didnt book for her
and i didnt feel like going so i let her go
dun feel bad hor michele... u happy i also happy =)
so i went to walk about amk central awhile
then i saw gundam seed models:
sword impulse 1/60 scale! 100+ bucks
super chio sia... lol
and also the 1/100 one, 40+...
still very exp lor...
i only haf the chibi one...
lol cost me about 10 bucks last time
and also infinite justice 1/100 scale!!!
50+ bucks... wa lao... i want i want~~~
lol... man... i want a complete destiny 1/100 set...
i haf destiny and strike freedom alr...
i was waiting for infinite justice and legend to come out
wait until this year then i sorta stop cuz it was too expensive anyway
sigh... nvm =(

lol... im bored... im playing maple again =.=
shijie is right... everything will be alright and will die off after a few days
lol everything is gonna be alright was supposed to be my motto some more
omg i really really need edification sia...

2006-05-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

wadda hell
u guys sux T.T
i ask everyone who wanna come for my chalet
only clair replied...
not even my beloved t26
=( specially asked u guys in class also...
no one replied
not to mention the stupid secret conversation going about
that i cannot join in
im feeling lonely again...
sux man
sian... last year also... everyone busy for no apparent reason

im damn tired la... everyday sleep so late...
lol... i need a good rest also...
bowling competition tmr... after tt can rest abit =P
maybe i ask some of my bowling friends... see if they wanna come =/
stupid t26 =(

2006-05-13T13:06:00.000+08:00

heee t26 rocks
we owned floor ball
first time playing some more
no hockey players
^^

after tt i went bowling wif kayliang my cousin
at mt faber safra
lol not bad la... my form starting to get consistent
i hit 186 in the last game ^^
could haf reached 200 if nt for the split on the 7th frame
lol then after that i went to orchard to meet up wif the rest of our class
i walked for 1 and a half hours to cathay due to a mistake
ran into cheryl yeo at somerset lol
then waited for 20min there for the same reason
then zhao to cine and finally met up wif them
lol then ended up they were going home already
and i didnt want to play pool
so i went home... lol saw xuanfang and her class at the mrt station
was tempted to join them cuz i didnt wanna go home yet...
=/ sigh...

then ytd... im damn smart... i dropped the bus without checking my wallet
my jeans was loose... so i didnt feel it missing
sian... la... my ic my ezlink my mothers' day present!
and nw my mum scolding me
like wtf... i purposely want to lose it meh
i feel damn miserable already lor
sigh... argh!!!!!!

2006-05-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

lol nothing much to post
but i dun want my blog to be stagnant...
clair: im disappointed at you,
after knowing me for more than a year
u still dunno me -.-"

hmmm anyway... tmr is cjc sports day
yay! lol still rmb last yr sji sports day
ronald and i climbed outta the back gate
and escaped to come to my house and watch naruto
i gonna be taking part in netball... quite nervous but... heck la

lol i haf been going for bowling by myself or wif a few mates
cuz dun haf training... then my hand super itchy lol
and somehow i am getting a real hang of hooking
then today guess wad happened,
uncle denny, the coach, told chris, the asst coach
that i haf potential to be in the team 1 next yr
meaning one of the best...
lol shijie told me...
haha inside my heart was like damn shiok
but haf to keep modest =P
but really wad... im still not as pro as the team bowlers nw =/

haha then after tt i went around watching ppl play
then mr ho came and talked to me and milton
then i told him my name was not on the list
then he check... end up my name really disappeared
i went for every single bloody training and more
and none was recorded...
sian... then he gave us the form so we can get released at 10am on the next two tues
lol damn shiok... can either go support the school team or be lane marshall
both is nice cuz can keep some lectures =P

then after tt... i hitched a ride from xuanfang's mum as usual
and she forgot to bring her spare ball...
lol and we saw gerard and lester going for 'oxygen' *cough cough*
yeah... quite a fun day la...esp the last part of the day =P

2006-05-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

took this from steff's blog =)

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people.

01. sean
02. clair
03. ariel
04. steff
05. yiwei
06. david
07. zhiyang
08. dor
09. corina
10. elena
11. shunren
12. walter
13. crenshaw
14. malcolm
15. POK
16. Mr Foo
17. aaron
18. michele
19. qian jun
20. clement

So these are the questions.

1. How did you meet 14?
malcolm? lol my bowling senior of cuz met him at bowling la

2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
sean lol... everything would be different... really

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
clement and nana.... no way... two worlds apart LOL

4. Did you ever like 19?
jun ah? like as in plain like lol... no affections

5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
david and aaron... gays? lol

6. Describe 3.
lol ariel ah... she is mature, wise, a very good leader

7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
dor... not to me =P maybe to girls

8. Tell me something about 7.
yang yang? he plays ice hockey!

9. Do you know any of 12's family?
not really... he's my guitar teacher

10. What's 8's favourite?
dor ah? in terms of music... jap pop... hobbies... gym and dance ba...

11. What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
michele? i will freak out.... honestly... or i will say... "how bout sean?" =X

12. What language does 15 speak?
pok? chicken language

13. Who is 9 going out with?
nana... that i dont know

14. How old is 16 now?
33 years old? lol

15. When's the last time you talked to 13?
crenshaw... today =)

16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
clair... Delirious?

17. Would you ever date 4?
steff??? lol stop laughing steff... haha if she dun mind of cuz hahaha

18. Would you ever date 7?
yang yang... not unless we both turn gay haha

19. Is 15 single?
pok... nope.... his msn nick doesnt tells me so

20. What is 10's last name?
elena yeo something lol... i dunno...

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
shunren... lol why am i calling myself gay

22. What school does 3 go to?
ariel is working~

23. Where does 6 live?
david... serangoon north/yck...

24. What's your fav thing about 5?
yiwei... his blurness... tts his bad pt also... lol

25. Have you seen number 1 naked?
LOL... i think so!! when we were young we bathed together... cousins ma... *laughs*

2006-04-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

lol today... fun and tiring
as usual...
lol i brought guitar to sch in taxi in the morning
first person i saw was steff...
then i look at the weather...
she was gonna run in the rain?! hahaha
odac *rolls eyes* =P
aiyo... then when i go back class ziyan was there alr haha
and was in the dark so i didnt really see him until i saw the door opened
when steff came back she was drenched la...
wearing white shirt some more
very smart girl lol
then phy pract she was working on the same table as me
wa lao... she poor thing la... it was so cold
had to take david's jacket... lol

rest of the sch time... nth much la...
mr foo talked bout his love story... so sad haha
then i practised at grand stand for a while
then go talk to my bowling seniors outside the library...
they damn crap la...
until 6 then i go woodlands...
ariel sms me to ask dorothy to wait for me...
i misread it tt dorothy will meet me at the mrt station
then in the end dorothy already gone off...
so i called for instructions...
and she gave me the wrong ones
make me walk around for 30mins
lol... then i tio scolded by ariel cuz i assumed dorothy was waiting for me
sigh... T.T
then we only had 30min to practise...
which was no enuff...
lol... but i still manage to play reasonably well...
since n288 was not my cell group haha...

tmr can wake up late! hahaha
not really...
my HTC, namely steff, wants me to join them at TP for breakfast...
depriving me of my precious slp... sigh... lol

2006-04-26T22:26:00.000+08:00

lol... so long nv post
feel as though my blog is stagnant...
this two weeks damn tiring la...
losing my precious sleep day by day
studying, doing PI, training, playing guitar...

lol... but i feel unsatisfied...
partly becuz i dun feel i did very well for my maths CA
13/20... although its highest in class...
but thats juz not my standard la...
some more ppl from other class got 19/20 or full marks...
im not working hard enuff...
and 2.4 was on monday...
we went one round leh... then tt stupid fool nv check stopwatch
make us stop and run again... then our pace and stamina gone
end up i got 11.40... not even my personal best...

then today PE very shiok
almost like free period... we played bball
haha but damn sad... we were 8v6
then kena outnumbered... so more tiring for us...
then end up we so tired... defence and attk also slackened...
so tio owned by soccer freaks... sigh...

oh yah i got my new bowling ball and bag and shoes for 300 bucks
haha my dad paid for it so =D
it is a ball named "shock" by columbia 300 trip line or smth
and i test it out today... hook alot la... lol
make until today's training damn shiok...
then after tt i hitched a ride from xuan fang's mum home lol so i reach home like 8...
yeah...

yay tmr im gonna play praise and worship for N288
cuz kee wei went for NS
so ariel asked me to do so...
haha feeling abit nervous but excited...
first time play worship... haha
all the way!
every little thing is gonna be alright ^^

2006-04-14T16:19:00.000+08:00

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ENFJ

The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #3 Match: ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #4 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #5 Match: ENTP

The Visionary

You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.
You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.
Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.
You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments.

You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

What's Your Personality Type?

lol... i can see the difference from last time's

2006-04-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

lol... 2.4 tmr... hope i will break record again
haha i wanna get gold this year leh...
last yr didnt get gold i cried leh lol...
missed by 12 sec last yr
oh well...
haha bowling was fun
i learned how to hook
new things are always interesting
haha but i needa get new ball...
maxim 9 pounds... dun hook much
only becuz of release tts why hooked
then we went to michelle's house
i got out of the bus
stunned for 10 sec
cannot say house... is mansion...
got lawn, swimming pool, theater, pool table
wa lao... the living room bigger than my house la
haha within an hr in the house...
we started the fire...
first to got dunked into the pool was malcolm...
haha i was part of the party
then after that i tried to get gerard in with xuan fang
but then... lippy/liangjie got me in...
haha damn fun la... after tt they took very long to get the fire up
hmmm then i took a shower and was going up and down the house...
play pool and cards and mahjong and sing karaoke
haha super fun la...
after tt we celebrated michelle's and nadia's bday
nadia is 20 yr old... i was shocked haha
she looked no where there =P
and we got them into the pool hahaha
and after tt liangjie started mixing cocktails
and ppl started drinking and getting drunk...
for me... im not a drinker...
the last time i drank was 2 yrs ago...
i only drank twice...
and i still thinks its disgusting haha
i stayed between the karaoke room and the pool table
running up and down
sing for like 30 min
then go play pool
lol... and shijie was damn drunk...
he was like... emo and ego haha
then we watch "the other" and "thirteen ghost" and "ocean's twelve"
somehow horror movie seems less scary when u r tired
maybe u bo chup ghost liao lol
yeah i slept at 7am... LOL
then when other woke up
i slept until 12
the bean bag was too shiok la
hahaha... then we had pizza for lunch...
the j2 started to go into the pool again
hahahaha
i went to play 2 round of pool wif shi jie then ran off to meet sean

we were supposed to go jamming haha
but clair had some problems...
and ronald didnt come either
to think we took cab to aljunied -.-"
waste of money and time sia...

2006-03-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

mass pe today sia... damn jialat
there i was, lack of slp, and still aching
lol... but i manage to complete everything within the time limit...
i think im gonna become damn fit la

oh yeah... mr foo today talk to us in class during PW
and i felt super sad i tell you
he said he slowly losing faith in God
that He even existed...
i sorta feel puzzled also...
a presence i can feel so tangibly,
yet many cant feel it
if God didnt exist, i shouldnt even be here
i would not haf a purpose or destiny
if u say im lucky tt i got into cjc with 17 pts
i'd haf to say you are wrong
if i rely on luck... i probably fail almost every time
sigh... shall pray for mr foo...
he is really going through tough times...

oh yeah after sch i went for bowling meeting
mr ho talked a whole load of crap
and we ended up going for training
i didnt haf enuff money la...
i owed the bowling fund 2 bucks haha
but bowling was fun...
chris the coach taught us bowling from extreme sides
which was to help our positioning and hooking
then we played two games...
one game practice... next game i start whacking straight balls
and my score was like
-8 | / | X | / | X | / | X | 9 | 7 | X 7|
score was 162... the excitement was damn high la...
when i didnt continue my streak everyone was like damn sad lol
then we went for dinner...
eugene started his gossiping... as we go for dinner
and he went on and on for 2 hrs
zzzzzzzzzzz
lol...

oh well... tmr another short day...
cya all then... God bless you!

2006-03-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

woah woah... one week of sch over liao
stop pestering me to post la...
last time was torrance
torrance nw sian already then u all come -.-"
very stress leh... posting requires 100% concentration
lol

man time is going too fast
april coming so soon
may coming also...
birthday soon ^^
hahaha chalet! errr i dunno if i shud invite my class lol...
cuz my cg members comes 1st...
lol make frens? room too small la lol

anyway... first week of term 2...
we tasted jc PE
like wad clair said "physical exertion not education"
i had cramps for four days
lol... 3 mths nv exercise ma =P
and i joined bowling... by chance lol
i wanted to join canoeing
then wed training cancelled
so i went to look around the ccas
guitar club... erm... to be honest
their skills are mediocre...
and the passion isnt really there
shooting club... damn funny la
we had lecture -.-"
and test =.=
and PT(i zhao alr)

on my way out of the school (lalala)
sees shun ren
mars: hello. wad cca u joining
sr: i going for bowling trials, come leh
mars: ah... anyhow la... go for fun lor...

and so i went for the trials...
so fun la... bowl normal at first...
then here comes chris the asst coach
he teach us some basics
i thought even if we dun get into bowling
we had benefitted from this
lol... so friday i went for the 2nd trial
in the end only 8 turn up
and the 8 turned out to be quite gd
and chris taught us more
now my momentum is super gd
yeah... mass(12 pounds)*velocity(???)=momentum
lol anyway... i think these coincidences seems to me as though He is guiding me

clair is having problems wif chee wee again
i do pray they r ok...
i want a breakthrough in my guitar playing... sigh...

2006-03-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

LOL
hi ppl
feels like a long time no see
haha CJC is FUN!!
orientation was like.... the best one i ever had la
and the best i ever will haf lol
lol list of events...

Wed: 7am reach sch
BP tell me to reach at 7am
i go admin office, "sorry Mr Tan haven't reach yet"
right... go there sit.... 10 min... 20 min... half an hour
assembly starting...
Mr Tan come out read out the list of names....
"Marvin Tang, IG-5"
"huh?(wadever juz quickly get there)"
reached there, "poh chiat!!!"
lol the only person i knew in the whole IG
super sian ok...
all the talks and lectures took up about 2 and half hours
and some more i dunno anyone...
lol... sianded...
cca pasor... damn confusing la... dunno wad to join
i dun wanna join ODAC(Outdoor Activity Club)
lol cuz haf to keep going malaysia...
then sometimes will lose my weekends
so... i waited until last 15 mins... when everyone go and check classes
signed up for dance lol... although its for fun cuz brother ryan would be there
maybe i will pull kenneth in
i checked my class...
S8917946G | Marvin Tang | 1T26
erm... go around asking...
no one from my class was in 26...
so... went to assemble in "audi"( but actually is hall)
26... benjamin was in 25...
then... CRENSHAW
lol vinod edmund yunhao
all the 411 412 ppl hahaha
all in 26...
then after a loooonnnggg period of time
move to classroom (they call it home room here)
then... there was this teacher
super lame... super irriating and mean haha
but he got owned later on...
Mr Foo Seck Shin(aka Sexy Fool, or Qixin, cantonese: siao)
and our two lovely facilitators
Joshua and Alena!
haha they r cool
then we went for cheering... no diff from house cheer la
then everyone zhao... i went to admin to collect form for transfer
then zhao to esplanade wif daryl and sean for acjc band concert
1st part... all the way at the back... damn boring
slept thru 15 mins
break... saw janiah! lol long time nv see her...
2nd part moved to sit wif uncle matthew so cannot slp... but he slept lol
end of wednesday... long day wasnt it
still for thurs and friday LOL

Thurs:
first thing... assembly...
home tutorial class
we formed our cheers
which is like damn cool la
then we went to the games stations after we changed
first station was... DOTA (defense of the *ahem* asses)
yeah as u guess is the stupid game where a cloth is stick into ur pants behind
and u haf to snatch others...
but this one... is incorporated wif lao ying zhua xiao ji thingy
lol 3 per team and 4 classes free for all
my team was ownage la... they couldnt get my cloth lol
with crenshaw as middle man
i jumped using him as a support then they cannot catch
in the end, our class won!!
lol 2nd station... CTF(capture the flag)
captains, me steff and zhiyang
zhiyang defend flag
me and steff taggers
the rest of the girls... defend
boys... 3 runners and rest distract
twice they got our flag but got stuck cuz all captains on him and then our runner ran in and capture flag
then once... total ownage
3rd station... swimming to other side to collect chips in pairs
all team got the same amt of chips
and we got the loudest cheer la... lol twen*clap*ty*clap*six*clap clap clap*
4th station... SWAT
dunno why it is swat
but it is holding a ball without hands and going to the goalpost and get puzzle pieces then make a magazine front cover
then somehow some pieces went missing
so we didnt win...
and then... water bombs...
mr foo shoot water and threw water bombs at us...
so joshua help us take revenge
he grabbed mr foo from behind and all of us bombed him wif the bombs we hid earlier haha
and i ran forward and snatch his bomb and smash it into his face
total ownage
haha
but he... drank some... water... and... SPIT at us...
heng i zhao fast lol
yeah so in the end we got 2nd overall in the whole lvl
ok.... dance practice for finale night
we havent even started anything... only the song
so... we took bout 2 hrs to choreograph everything
then 1 hr to master
and finale night...
wahahha lupo dance kicked ass in my opinion
but our cheer... CMI lol
yeah... very nice la... facils gave us an item also
then we went out for dinner
crenshaw, corina, steff, zhiyang, vinod, ziyan and me and joshua
lol... crenshaw and ziyan was performing magic card tricks
corina was totally freaked out
i only got stunned at the can trick
yeah... after tt... went home...

Friday: lectures start
maths lecture... not as interesting as mr ang la
lol... and tt guy keep advertising his maths society
then... home tutorial to sort out everything b4 the holidays
break... nth special... we got our graphics calculators
big... heavy... expensive... but perfect for lectures
lol cuz can pass message around
and gt games...
econs lecture... to me la... juz a branched out topic of human geog
mr leong was damn idiotic la... got ppl talking and sleeping
he dun care... then shoot steff...
lol i had the urge to bring the whole 1T26 to accompany her
but... nt tt familiar yet... later... i tio scolded lol
physics lecture... haha fiddling with the GC whole time
didnt hear anything the lecturer said...
until he asked everyone to stand up cuz of the noise
after that... went to audi for reminder bout remedial and term 2 stuff
then i zhao to SP to give the transfer form...
took me 45 mins to find the office
its so damn big la...
after tt... took 105 back to sch to bring the form back
felt like going for rockefella so i bought a ticket...
thinking our class would be meeting up and sit together
lol went home change and come out...
in the end i sat alone... but heng i went to look for ppl from 1T26
then i ended up sitting wif steff and her IG
alena and corina was there
so it was part of the 1T26 anyway lol
yeah... the concert was kick ass la... except for some singers lol
but i bet sean and i can be better than them... lol
maybe i will join next yr

later got cg... i better go practise my guitar... lol...
todays song abit hard... =/ all best to everyone and have a blessed holiday
i still haf remedial on mon tue wed T.T

2006-03-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

two weeks flew pass so quickly...
today's daily success key's topic is:
Regardless Of What You Are Going Through, Remember, God’s Word Is Always True.
how true... and u know wad this means?
u can claim every single promise in the Bible without worrying tt it might not come true
"a thousand may fall by your side, ten thousand by your right hand, but it shall not come near you"
sicknesses, diseases, failures, poverty, death... all of this
even if one of ur fellow cg members got it,
He promised tt it shall not come near you
"ask and it shall freely be given to you"
i asked for my appeal to be successful
i was scared, almost lost hope
thought i might end up in poly
yet thanks to prayers from Ariel and my cg members
His favour pulled me through
not only i got into cjc,
i made friends with the Principal already
and he is a nice guy
and i can sense the glory of the Lord upon him
people, things unexpected or expected may happen
things may change, better or worse
but His word remains the same
and He is the same yesterday today and forever
you all ARE the branches, and He IS the vine
stop trying to be wad you already is
relax, and enjoy His presence and blessings
do u think He who love you so much would not make a way out of your problems?
He lead u in, He will lead u out

Sing For Joy
If we call to Him, He will answer us
If we run to Him, He will run to us
If we lift our hands, He will lifts us up
Come now praise His name all ye saints of God

Chorus:
Sing for joy to God our strength
Sing for joy to God our strength, our strength

Draw near to Him, He is here with us
Give Him your love, He's in love with us
He will heal our hearts, He will cleanse our hands
If we rend our hearts, He will heal our land

2006-02-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

lol this shall be a happy post
cause im happy =P
i dunno why lol
its juz the mood

pastor ulf is coming tomorrow!
i am thrilled haha
can't wait

i wanna go jamming!
i haf alot of songs in my mind haha
and its fun to worship Him in a band
hope we can go on saturday...

2006-02-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

i dunno wads gotten into me again...
this is irritating...
nw valentine's day has passed...
oh yeah i spend it wif my grandma...
i cut my hair and got a new watch...
this time i will treasure it haha...
dun wanna lose it again...

wednesday i went to give my 1st "tuition"
not tuition cuz im juz helping...
not really charging anything
haha... tt day i nv wear specs, then i forgotten how shao ying looks like
haha then we keep trying to look around for familiar faces
not bad la... i didnt get very nervous...
but still i cant teach the mr ang's standard...
haha he's the best... miss him... next time can go back and visit him
we went on and on for bout 2 and half hours...
quite fun la... locus ma... i love locus
cuz its so easy =P
then she ask me bout frequency stuff... i sian lol...
lucky kee wei still rmb... if nt i die

then today torrance introduced me to this box frenzy game...
i got a hang of it and my score got higher and higher...
so i became a little arrogant and tried to compete wif torrance...
then when i finally beat him, i sorta went abit overboard and he blocked me on msn
juz nw i even disliked him for being so petty...
and its my fault actually...
sometimes i really feel damn bad bout myself...
its like... always being the one who is useless
and untalented and lousy and stupid and clumsy...
and when i thought i am better at some one at smth, i luff at them
wad kinda stupid man am i...
maybe i am gd at smth... making ppl angry
sigh...

2006-02-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

haha wad a nice week end i had
haha friday i rcv my results...
mrs woo 1st time tell me "can get into jc but not very good"
lol my heart sank...
even though i told myself wadever happens, its a better way cuz He planned it...
but still... there was this disappointment in knowing i got 17...
=/ then at that night... haha managed to recover abit thru daryl's party and anime fights

saturday cg =)
supposed to play praise "Hold Me Close"
but =/ i didnt really know how to play
and didnt haf time to work it out becuz it was so last minute...
so kee wei took over...
once again... its like... never mind lor let him take over
doesnt matter anyway...
but then still its like... a voice inside telling me its becuz im nt gd enuff tts why
haha and then p & w was good
His presence really flowed very well and He picked me up once again and embraced me
=) after tt, sermon was gd, fellowship was gd haha

today i had my water baptism service!
haha yeah my stepdad allowed me to go
haha love him =P
and i also love my cg members!
they r so gd... came to accompany and witness my baptism
then gave me gifts and prayed for me
haha... thank you all
im really touched and i enjoyed myself
even those who couldnt come its ok ^^
yeah then we went to kopitiam for lunch
=D ariel treated sean and i to minced pork noodle (ba chuo mee) lol
then we go shopping at Jurong Point
trying to find present for chee wee
clair dragged me from lvl 3 to lvl 2 to lvl 1 then to lvl 3 then back down
lol... walk until her toes cramped =/
haha dun dare carry her =P
was fun la... =)
then we went jamming at katong shopping centre but had to wait till 7.40pm
and we were there at 6.50pm
so we went up to silver bowl and bowled 2 games, me sean and chee wee
haha fun lor... my skills nv rust =P
but my spinning skills rusty lol
hehe jamming session
we were posting studio 4
the lousiest studio i've seen
bass cable spoil
bad lightings
small room
untuned instruments
no keyboards
and hot
haha we went to ask for change
after tt we moved to studio 1
haha like 3 times as big and better
so we played alot of songs by delirious? and some random songs
and we also played a song composed by chee wee
haha the presence was there... flow was ok
and it was very shiok...
i love bassing... ^^
tts bout it la... thank you all for letting me haf such a great time =)
i love you all

2006-02-07T19:48:00.000+08:00

okie... so its erm... 2 weeks since i last posted
its the year of the doggies lol...
and lets start wif cny shall we...
lol firstly i got alot quite alot of angbaos this year =D
700+++
but my mum took away 100+
left 600++++
so i gave everything to building fund...
lol...
and something interesting happen during cny
i went to my grandma's hse to bai nian
then a cute lil dog came outside the door
lol... and its really cute...
it ate alot of bak kwa -.-"
lol but then we returned it to the owner the next day
=/ year of the dog...
then after that i went wif sean to andy's hse to haf our reunion dinner no. 2
lol... then we play texas hold'em poker
hehe the Apple iPod company consisting of sean, yvonne and i won the deciding match
and then we play mahjong the next day... using chips
haha i anyhow win alot

lol next... CG
wah it felt so long since our last cg meeting
lol... maybe becuz its such a big change...
in location, size, and i was starting to play for praise
yeah i played "Everyday"
well... it all went on really well until... my fingers cramped
trust me it was not painful, but its freaking hard to press the correct chords since my fingers are all cramped together...
but yeah... cg was nice... presence was strong... sean's grandma felt it in the room lol
im gonna play better next week...

Delirious? came to visit our church and had worship services last week
it was a very fun praise and worship time
lol but our church was like so quiet...
i barely hear anyone singing
but the flow was still there...
and Delirious? muz be like the best boy band in the whole world lol

this week... is gonna come like a big blow
haha o lvl results... on friday...
cg on saturday
water baptism on sunday
heh... every little thing gonna be alright
shall post after my results
stay tuned for great news

2006-01-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

Dominant Extraverted Sensing
ESTP & ESFPWhat is it like?

By Danielle Poirier www.RebelEagle.com
© copyright Rebel Eagle Productions

Extraverted sensing types are pragmatic and realistic with a zest for living life to the fullest by way of multiplying experiences. Always on the alert for what needs immediate attention or what might provide a bit of action, excitement or entertainment, they engage quickly with their environment. They seek and enjoy freedom, are good-natured, direct, and tolerant and are often the ones who provide levity.

They have a way with dealing with people on a very equal platform and are not easily star struck. Rank, celebrity and status mean little when they are face to face with another individual.

On the job, they appreciate having the right tools and are quite ingenious at finding ways to fix and repair things with dexterity. They love variety and are curious and adventurous, enjoying the unexpected. Their brand of extraversion is one of deeds rather than words. As long as things are moving along, they are happy. They like to keep things simple and immediate, going with the flow. They are helpful in very concrete ways, providing the correct tools or specific service the person requires. They often have an uncanny ability to respond appropriately in cases of emergencies, often having excellent reflexes. They act without thinking. They also tend to have natural mediating skills.

They are attuned to the environment and the myriad colours, textures, sounds, beauty and the sensuousness of it all. They are quite graceful and agile while moving through their environment. They love having fun and if things are too quiet they may provide the entertainment or distraction. They learn by imitation and are keen observers. They teach through example. Their attention will always go towards whatever provides the keenest impression on their senses.

dun ask me... im just bored

2006-01-14T13:40:00.000+08:00

You scored as Philosophy. You should be a Philosophy major! Like the Philosopher, you are contemplative and you enjoy thinking about the purpose for humanity's existence.

Philosophy

100%

Art

83%

Engineering

83%

Theater

75%

Mathematics

67%

Linguistics

67%

Sociology

67%

Dance

58%

English

58%

Chemistry

58%

Anthropology

50%

Biology

50%

Journalism

42%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)

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2006-01-13T03:47:00.000+08:00

i bought two books by kenneth e hagin
if u dunno who he is u r a frog in the well
he is very famous and very anointed...
i bought a book called "the Spirit WITHIN and the Spirit UPON"
its powerful... talks bout the dual working of the Spirit
that the Holy Spirit works within us to develop our character,
yet also working upon us into ministry and service
it tells us also the importance of walking in love
being encompassed by God's loving kindness and tender mercy

the second book is called "Healing Anointing"
well erm wad i wanna say can be derived from the title
you can learn to flow wif the healing power of God
and to rcv wad belongs to you
and take all the blessings Christ died to give us
=) when i finish i will start lending haha

2006-01-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

lol blessed new year to everyone!
well these 11 days into 2006...
lol... im at home almost everyday...
and everyday i haf nothing to do except
playing my guitar and computer and watch tv...
and listen to sermons and read the bible
lol... but yet i feel that chc is gonna step into another lvl
especially after joyce meyer came
and preached the good news
that there are now therefore no condemnation
for those who are in Christ Jesus
and we are the righteousness of God in Christ
=D

lol... time for thanksgiving
thank God for coming into my life
for loving me even when im blinded
for letting me know the wonderful truth of Jesus
and giving me so so so so much
my friends, my family, my leaders
all of whom were sent into my life by You

i would like to thank my parents
including my step dad
although they may never read this
for bearing wif my stubborn and bad-tempered nature
for stepping out for me when ever i get into trouble
for raising up this young man to know Christ

i would like to thank my Gu Ma and Sean
haha for letting me know Christ five years ago
for sponsoring me to israel
coming back from israel is not the end of my journey
it is just the beginning
and it is gonna be more and more exciting wif God

hmmm i wanna thank my cell grp members
all of them... lol last yr i may haf caused some trouble for you all
sry =P
and also... being the most transformed member... thanks to you all
before i really came to experience God,
you people were the one who were there for me
and when i grow and change for the better
you were happy for me =)
Ariel, Zarah, Clement, Chee Keong, Serena, Eliza, Alan, Sean, Jasmine, Clair, Qian Jun, Michele, Joy, Anna Beth, Ryan, Joshua, Raynor, Ivan, Tanest, Msnie THANK YOU

erm... and also Torrance, Ronald, Grace and Janiah
lol... u all know why... i dun wanna repeat

Special Thanks To Sean
thank God for you
i really miss those times we talk bout God on msn
God bless you highly favoured one
may His glory never depart from you
and continue to shine for Him
and grow daily having abundance of love and wealth
and His favour is on you always =)
Who Christ Is, So Are We In This World
=)

2005-12-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

erm... you guys really waiting for me to post ah...
lol... been weeks since i came back...
can say... good... can say... bad...
good in a way... i've made 2 gd friends...
and they became like my sisters...
lol... yeah.. they are nice people really...
its nice hanging out wif them...
bad in a way... spiritually...
since i came back i havent got a talk wif sean yet
as in those talks where we speak bout God to each other
edifying one another
then also from the israel trip i develop a hunger
which haf nt been satified that now im so dry...
i was so scared... i came to a pt i really cannot take it
and i took out my guitar and start playing while looking through message histories for revelations
well alot of people dunno of cuz...
another thing is my family problem...
i've got over my parental issues already...
i perfectly accept my step dad and my mum and my dad is also ok
but in came my paternal grandparents....
they start to scold my mum for being unfaithful
and talking bad bout my step dad's family...
its horrible... as the grandson... the one who links this two family
i hate it... i wanna cry... but Daddy God was still there for me...
i lack the love that i needed... my mum does not even treat me as her son
rather as a irritant to my step dad...
like scared that i may make him unhappy or smth...
and im so confused wif wad is going on in my life...
and why am i doing things that will cause the thing i dread to happen
argh... its so fustrating... praise God He was there for me...
and He gave my two friends that bring me away from the problems to let Him solve it...
i really pray that the incoming year, everything will change...
and i believe greater things will happen... greater blessings will come
alot of people is still worse than me... they dun haf God...
and alot of people need me...
Praise Be to God and To Him Be All the Glory and Honour

2005-12-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

yay im back from israel
i can say no one seems to miss me
cuz everyone haf their own eventful ten days when i was not around
israel rox!
shalom shalom
the people there arent as bad as people think
jews are as friendly as anyone can be
and they haf quite a sad history...
and no. 1 tour guide in the whole of israel
moshe nov!
haha honestly he is the best
haha he is cool and a great dancer
and he plays basketball and a superb cook
the whole group of us was so favoured to haf him
he is geographical professional and a very good memory for history and names
and also he knows when to do the right thing to produce the best result
a very powerful and influential character in the holy land
and he looks like robert de niro
haha
yeah becuz of him i also learn alot...

i also wanna thank sidney (thio not mohede)
i cannot say its lucky... muz be His favor upon us
for making him the leader for this group
cuz sidney is a living testimony
and God sent him to enlighten my path =)

i also wanna thank my aunt
for sponsoring me for this trip and the trip to US last year
and even buying me a hanuka and bible
and paid for my tips when i didnt haf enuff
i shall bless her back when i work next time

and also grace and janiah and leng zai kor kor isaac
hmmm how to say
u added more colours to my trip
esp after we went to tiberius
and started hanging out
=) thank you so much for accompanying me

yeah... thats all... my skin is still zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... lol lousy blog

2005-11-28T10:44:00.000+08:00

wow im somehow stuck in between excitement and reluctance....
im going to israel!! yay!
but im going to miss singapore and its people
funny isnt it
i am still in singapore haha
yester pastor phil didnt preach much...
mainly ministering...
some how the service was for me to come back and worship
i pray that when i come back from israel,
i will be able to have a daily supply of milk and honey
not juz weekly manna
its very dry in this world...
u get filled for a few hours when u go to church or cg
then after a while u need to be filled again
big appetite eh...

haha everyone seems to go on holidays at the same time...
clair michele joy went to bbg at batam
beth dun seem to be in singapore
eliza went to china i think
ariel went to taiwan
and sean and i going israel...
lol... then ytd svc was like so few people
and i found out something...
jasmine tai chee keong and qian jun are sooooo secretive...
hmph so much for being my brothers and sisters
got blog also dun wan let people see
got problem also dun wanna tell
at least sean and i can help right?
rawr
notice my template is screwed
the pic went down
and my spare copy is missing
disastrous!
dun feel like changing skin lol... juz leave it be

2005-11-24T09:30:00.000+08:00

clair tell u one thing i was thinking about...
which haf been pressing on me
for the last few weeks
Praise God i didnt crumble and break down
His strength held my weakness...
yeah... I felt as though i cannot compare to sean
i mean this is quite inevitable since i grew up wif him
the only thing i ever beat him at is PSLE tt time
and probably maths...
thats all i could think of...
cuz i felt him to be superior in every area,
sports, computer, friends, spirituality blah blah
and everyone seems to be attracted to him...
yeah i know i was feeling jealous
and i shud not compare myself to him because i haf my own strengths
but still it kept bugging me
to almost everyone he is like the Mr. Nice Guy
cuz he is lame but humorous, calm and wise and is a pro-musician
and me, unable to make up a joke, easily flared up, irradical at times and is not even focussed
he probably doesnt know bout this but,
sometimes i dun like going out wif him cuz im always shunted away
yeah... thats only one of the thing
but God came the last few days... keep coming
and strengthen me by telling me im unique,
i haf strengths sean can never think of having,
even if it is not shown widely,
it is known to Him
and no matter wad happens
sean is still my cousin and i love him as a brother
yeah... relax i will never show this side of me in front of u guys
even if i feel depressed i will force a smile knowing this will help others gain strength as well
i will crucify all this feelings on the cross and let Jesus handle it
=)

2005-11-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

waaaaa exams are over!!!!
the boring holidays are here?
haha
cool right o lvl over leh
not cool? bleh u got no life
im bored though
even though i went out today
and had a fun time...
yeah how fun can pass away so quickly haha
know how bored was i? i watch harry potter not once not twice no thrice but FOUR TIMES
hahaha waste of money but yeah...
for friends and for fun
today i didnt go for the PAE thingy...
cuz i woke up at 9+ lol
so i decided to meet clair and joy at cine 1st to buy tix for the movie
found out tt sean not coming and nicholas is coming
well glad tt he came... at least i got someone to keep me busy
haha and his lame jokes did cheer clair up a little at least...
i guess tts his worth... cuz he is still a kid after all
once again... i felt quite useless seeing my sis sad but cant do anything
so i juz tried to cheer her up by treating her ice cream since she says she wants
haha but she dun wan in the end...
in the end all i could do is send her back to tanah merah and talk to her abit
well i dunno... but i found myself speaking in tongues more
cuz i really wanted guidance from the Spirit
yeah... i found that thru our own abilities,
our potential is limited...
but topped wif His anointing,
we can do all things
oh yah anyway... pls visit http://e337.blogspot.com
it is my cg blog... and activities will be posted there...
so if anyone of u wanna join us juz tell me on my tag or msn
if u wanna hear God's word u can also go there
honestly there are preachers in the making there haha

2005-11-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

Ordinary Level Examination Schedule (Personal Reference)

07/11 Monday
Mathematics Paper 1 0800-1000
Combined Humanities (Social Studies) 1400-1530
08/11 Tuesday
Science (Chemistry) 0800-0915
09/11 Wednesday
English Paper 1 0800-0945
English Paper 2 1015-1155
Science (Physics) 1400-1515
10/11 Thurday
None
11/11 Friday
Mathematics Paper 2 0800-1030
Literature (Twelfth Night) 1430-1600
14/11 Monday
Literature (King of the Castle and Unseen Poem/Prose) 0800-0920
15/11 Tuesday
Additional Maths Paper 1 1400-1600
16/11 Wednesday
Combined Humanities (Geography Elective) 0800-0930
17/11 Thursday
Additional Mathematics Paper 2 0800-1000
18/11 Friday
None
21/11 Monday
None
22/11 Tueday
Science (Physics/Chemistry) Multiple-Choice Question 1400-1500

2005-11-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

clair... torrance.. watch it...
u sabotaged me into doing this..
i will never forget the favour lol...

Rules of the game:Post 5 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end, list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'You Are Tagged' in their blog and tell them to read yours.

1. i have 3 gundams at home... chibi impulse, destiny HG and strike freedom HG
2. i have a step father and my dad was an ex-convict and still a bookie now lol
3. i actually stayed out at a lan shop after school until 9pm several times during sec 2
4. i never got a present i wanted b4... cuz no one knows wad i really want
5. i listen to nothing but christian music now haha...

ok. now the 5 ppl.

1. me
2. myself
3. i
4. dunno who cuz no one reads this blog
5. the one who sabo me

2005-10-31T14:03:00.000+08:00

study too much... going abit mad...
outing... lost... ran so much...
was exhausted b4 it even started...
nt bad la... quite fun... at least we had fun...

ytd... sermon.. relationship/friendship...
i dunno i juz feel tt his topic got nothing to do with the contents...
he was juz telling us the 7 laws of friendship...

we celebrated ck's bday ytd...
sean n i bought him an i-dog...
u know the one tt can dance when u plug music to it...
then got touch sensor wan....
and cg present also i choose wan...
"Shine" by Newsboys
america's best christian band
haha... i pray that he will be strong
and be firm
be a light that will shine thru despair and darkness

to someone:
you know i hate it... i told you b4...
i dun wanna talk bout him
when he is someone you hate and someone i love
this is wad happen
u said u forgive him...
i rather say u didnt...
forgive seventy time seven times...
Daddy manage to forgive all of us
and swore that he would nv show anger
why cant we... its our own mind...

im tired... i dunno wad to say
i dunno wad to do...
my prayer is still the same

2005-10-24T02:16:00.000+08:00

Shine Like Stars
Jakarta Praise Community Ch. Key: G
Praise

Look at the world we live today
Look at the hurting everywhere
Let us see mercy and Your grace
Over flowing every place
Let us be one with You today
Let Your glory fall

We will shine
Shine like the stars above
Shining in Your light
Guided by Your love
Let Your fire burn in us
Burning like a sun
As we glorify
Show Your Kingdom come
To all of the earth

Teach us to live in righteousness
Teach us to love in one accord
Guide us to live life everyday
As we worship in Your court
Let us declare Your majesty
Let Your glory fall

We will shine like the stars above
As we're burning like a sun

MAJESTY (HERE I AM)
DELIRIOUS Key: C
Worship

HERE I AM
HUMBLED BY YOUR MAJESTY
COVERED BY YOUR GRACE SO FREE
HERE I AM
KNOWING I’M A SINFUL MAN
COVERED BY THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB

NOW I’VE FOUND
THE GREATEST LOVE OF ALL
IS MINE
SINCE YOU LAID DOWN YOUR LIFE
THE GREATEST SACRIFICE

MAJESTY
MAJESTY
YOUR GRACE HAS FOUND ME JUST AS I AM
EMPTY HANDED BUT ALIVE IN YOUR HANDS

SINGING MAJESTY
MAJESTY
FOREVER I AM CHANGED BY YOUR LOVE
IN THE PRESENCE OF YOUR MAJESTY
MAJESTY

HERE I AM
HUMBLED BY THE LOVE THAT YOU GIVE
FORGIVEN SO THAT I CAN FORGIVE
HERE I STAND
KNOWING THAT I’M YOUR DESIRE
SANCTIFIED BY GLORY AND FIRE

2 very nice and good songs hahaha and juz now was a epistle from sean... juz wanna post it cuz it will be meaningful to me....

2005-10-24T02:15:00.000+08:00

To: Rev. Dr. Marvin Tang

Beloved, I wish that you would posper and be in health, in all things. I also pray that thy faith would not fail thee. That you would count your blessings, and remember the Lord your God. In everything thou doeth, doeth to the lord, and acknowledge him in all thy ways. Oh I pray that you will be strengthened in your weaknesses, and move in power and testimony of the spirit! Brethen, the works you labour and the trials you face, we see. And by the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, God, our father who is seated on the throne, sees and hears your prayer! My beloved, I write to you that you may remain steadfast in your confession of faith, ever so dependant on our Lord Jesus Christ, who came from heaven to die for us on the cross, and on the third day was risen. As we and Christ remain as one, no longer us, but Christ in us. Therefore, whom shall come against us? And O, what mountain will not become a plain? Brethen, this epistle is to you that the revelation of Christ's love for you, may be expounded. And in all things, you would give thanks, and be at peace. Grace and peace be multiplied to you, Rev. Dr. Marvin. For you did not choose, nor find God. But God chose and find you. Now we know that we lean not on our own power or understanding, but in all foolishness, on the holy spirit. For by our foolishness, than are we made wise. Brethen, always remember, that nothing is impossible with God, therefore fear nothing. For the love that was given to us, has also become our strength and our purpose. Behold, there is nothing greater, than for the Lord God Almighty, to humble himself in his glory, and to die for your sins, that we may come into union with the Father, son and Holy spirit. Praise be to God! I thank God for you always, and pray that you will continue to grow in the love of Christ, forsaking yourself. For in ourself is selfishness. Once again, God's richest blessings be upon you, in Jesus' name. Amen
Apostle Sean

2005-10-18T16:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm =D got my zen micro... 5gb!! blue colour!!! aoiro desu~~~~ haha
i uploaded alot of christian songs.... only one album of good charlotte haha...
got alot of space... time to dl =)

wahaha mugging starts now... dun expect me to blog any more torrance... until maybe after exam... 4 pts... no one stopping me... only i can stop myself... which of cuz im not going to... watch me shine for god!

october is here!!! birthdays haha
annabeth, joshua, zarah and ck....
happy birthday to you all
nice knowing you for this one yr plus...
you changed my life... really!

haha went for class outting ytd...
paraliturgy(graduation/sending off) ceremony
i got nyaa silver!!! thx mr lim...
sry for disappointing you by not getting gold
went to seoul garden with my class and mrs woo
rox man... i talk alot wif mrs woo
found she is really a teacher who teach becuz she loves us
and im sad to leave this class and school...
last time say hate sji is real...
but this yr of experience change my thinking
i love 412 and sji ppl...
i left a legacy... and there will be people carrying on the legacy
and im going to njc to become the salt and the light
josephians, dun let me down...
i wanna see the whole school saved some day...
burden in my heart... yet joy in the lord supporting it

haha started playing maplesea again...
cuz very bored... then find it very easy to train now...
aiya i dunno wad to do when i rest from study... so play lor...
im hitting 10 hrs a day lol...
stayed up last thurs nite and slept for 1/2 an hour lol...
juz by a cup of coffee
no wonder nurse say i got low blood pressure

blog creation is on hold...
no time to do all the logos and stuff...
cuz i dun haf adobe
and someone dun wanna create them =x

planetshakers rox too... haha...
hillsongs and delirious? also....
im gonna start a christian band wif sean brien ron and maybe some keyboardist... clair? lol nah cannot only girl =x too bad...
ron is going fine for all those who cares...
he is having bs from someone in chc...

looking back... god is awesome still...
harvest time is here... cuz other ppl's exam is over...
when o lvl over... my turn...
my class 412... muz bring them to christ...
i love them...
but how? they are so anti christ...
but who cares... juz speak =)
maybe god will juz give me a word of wisdom that will touch their heart
who can be against me??
my daddy is for me u know!

2005-10-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

hmmmm interesting week... haha firstly we got back our prelim results... i got 23... either appeal to jc or go mi for first 3 mths... but i dun wan both... i wan go work then give God more... cant thank Him enuff for wad he has given me... lol invaluable...

ya... started playing maple again haha... one day per lvl lol... from 28 jump to 35 from monday to now... cool sia... cool right? lol... not bad... cleric rox... i like healing people... but i dun like jumping around juz to catch them and heal them haha...

hmmmm... ya annabeth's birthday!!! lol... happy birthday... even though u wun read lol... continue to shine... we celebrate after cg... =) sean and i went to play tennis wif andy and daryl after tt... and guess wad we saw... clarissa playing tennis.... in skirt!!!! O.O smth i didnt expected lol... actually all of us... auntie rina bought us a adidas shirt that has ventilation holes and also absorb all our sweat la... we take of the shirt then our body so dry hahaha... cool man...

i shall work hard for my o lvl... njc no matter wad =D shine no matter wad... 23 to 8... juz u wait!!! i dun care wads coming... juz come... im prepared to fight it off... and god will help me... =)

eh... guess i cannot join choir liao... lol... im a bit tone deaf... =( nvm children's church will do... =) i wanted it... but becuz last time i didnt wanted to be teased at becuz they think the reason is smth else... but now i dun care... =) and clair and i is making a blog for e337... for me... i wanna spread the blog around... so people can get to know our church more, our events and how we work... and if they wanna come, juz tag haha =) its coming up soon... please wait wif anticipation...

2005-10-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

k how many times did i cry today... one... two... three... four... FIVE!!! broke record right? haha

k firstly in the morning my mum suddenly tell me dun wanna go... i dun wanna force but i really wanted her to go... she didnt want to go then i nvm lor... but in my heart really hurt alot... she didnt know so i cried on my bed to God then felt better and went to school...

then i come to school... graduation day... i sing song.. cry another time haha... but not tt bad la... then speech cry again... then after that go home... i see everyone wif parents then i went home... alone... so i cried again... but God filled my heart and told me He was there and i know that was enough...

then 5th time is i got scolded by sean juz now... and i was tired... usually i will juz quarrel wif him... but dunno why cry also... haix...

monday prelim result coming out... i've got the faith to pull through and go to jc orientation... sigh... sean... even if i got a lvl paper on monday, i will still go routine and go for church on sunday... cuz i already know that God made a way for me... so i wouldnt go for make up svc even if people ask me to... wadever la... no one reads anyway... except torrance maybe... not to even say sean...

went to yilun cg for make up cell cuz of the dumb graduation and the sermon was bout attitude... then their cg style not the same as ours wan... more suaning... more relax and happy... or maybe im juz too serious... probably...

2005-09-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

woot... this blog is... deserted... no one comes here for a few days lol... then i also dun feel like blogging =/

anyway... cg message bout faith... for healing... but still faith... this message... i rcv it fully liao... mths ago... haha now i am really using it... applying it... its great la... one thing very true... it is not that u believe then you get... you alreadi haf it even b4 u were created... haha... so true...

pst kong also preached bout faith... and holy spirit... wad is faith? F A I T H Forsaking ALL I Trust Him! lol... holy spirit is my best buddy haha... my counsel... my comforter... my God! haha Good Morning Holy Spirit told me all...

haha look wad i juz got...

wahahaha He rox! and i got perfect eyesight! hallelujah!

2005-09-22T19:18:00.000+08:00

*music* prelim is over. i repeat. prelim is over. and for celebration, there will not be school for the whole school tmr to make the sec 4s happy and admire the School Excellence Award we got. announcement is over. thank you *music*

lol yay!!!! long weeeeeeeeeeeekend.... wahooo! haha the stupid SEA award i bet is useless wan... as if students will study better wif it... lame... haha... prelim is over~~ now is wait for results... then time to evangelise! cuz i see people cry muz go comfort them ma... then when they heart soften... i strike! haha... jk... ya... i dun wanna see a single friend be thrown to hell when He comes...

haha i watch Final Fantasy VII Advent Children... although i didnt play the game b4... its super cool k... the graphics... shiok... then the fighting even better... its super duper muz watch haha... go download at http://www.hiro-fansubs.com haha if not ask me burn for u...

this few days not very happening... ya... haha im hungry for Him...

service was good... richard roberts... great man... haha didnt bring hp tt day... was quite a hassle with out...

haha my internet back on after a few days... missed it lol...

2005-09-13T15:29:00.000+08:00

yay physics is over... a maths tmr... piece of cake... haha have been reading thru ALL my post since i started this blog... found that alot of things changed... alot of things learnt and most of all... my walk wif God was like nth b4...

haha last time is like... religion and religion... never really commune... but now is relationship relationship ^^ its cool to be new... its cool to be no longer i... forgot to tell u all my CCA grade got A1 haha... nothing great for a scout... haha but who ask me be scout and get free A1 =p

today physics... screw up abit... cuz a few questions forgot study and dunno how to do =/ haha it will be fine cuz im gonna own in MCQ and study for chem... been playing guitar and computer alot... but i got study wan... relax haha...

happy birthday to kenneth torrance joy siewleng whose birthdays juz passed haha... sry no present cuz im too poor and needa save for building fund if i haf any... i dun like being in a poor family... it sux... im not poor but my parents r... bless them... foolish ones who worship idol... pray tt they will get saved...

OH YAH my grandma and grandpa rcv a sermon cd from my auntie it is in cantonese so they will understand... i really hope to get them saved... God will do it haha...

2005-09-12T17:59:00.000+08:00

so tired... why muz i blog... becuz torrance told me to... my new add nicer hor... better than kagebunshin... im no longer a clone... haha... im marvin the beloved son of God... haha... many days has passed... prelim is here!!! crap i nv study wan... lol...

anyway... i shall blog bout the holidays... well..
day 1... slack at home... lol!
day 2... fast and go prayer meeting then go crystal jade... haha u heard tt liao...
day 3... erm go bs then go sean's hse... then has fun there like always lol
day 4... nth!! call frens like siao...
day 5... YOUTH EDITION!!! andy and daryl came... so happy... haha... they went up for alter call... hope they come again... and we went to celebrate joy's bday!!! at erm... cafe cartel... so exp... sigh... then we nv sleep all nite long... haha... then everyone collapse the next day lol... dun wanna talk bou the stupid security...
day 6... continue of joy's bday with shopping in marina sq... wif some teasing of sean to buy sanitary napkins... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz then go home sleep...
day 7... svc... pst kong is back!!!! haha heart of worship as the title of the sermon... very nice... very meaningful... very filling...

SCHOOL REOPEN
hahaha wad else? prelim is here!!! argh i nv study haha... supposed to... Geography Elective and Mathematics Paper 1... maths was easy... morale booster haha... geog... okok la... think can pass... hope so... vomited all my knowledge out haha... and i was laughing all the way cuz mark was in front of my and he finished so early and guessed wad, he only did 2 question... supposed to do 2 sections haha... 2 question is section a and 1 in section b ahahhaha... TMR IS MY COMBINED SCIENCE (PHYSICS) Section B haha... make it sound so difficult... piece of cake... =X cuz God is wif me...

spiritual life is still expanding... although keep falling... but im getting up... haha Jesus is my righteousness Jehovah Tsidkenu... Jehovah Abba haha... im a Prince! not Half Blood Prince... haha BUT PRINCE OF GOD! walk high, stand tall n BE BRAVE!

2005-09-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

okok relax torrance!!! lol... wad an avid reader =X wad to blog bout... so sian...

wahahaha anyway prelims r here... so r sept holidays... lol eng prelim over... big relief... was quite easy... but i dunno whethere i write outta pt haha...

and teachers day was super fun and nice... my sch's performance is more like talentime haha... 3 singing, 2 bands haha... quite nice la... our mc was good... nigel haha... throw stone...

yay!!! ronald actually replied my letter!!! wooohooo u know why i so happy? cuz he has not backslided!!! he got bs in there and prays... im so gonna write him sermons man...

today after prayer meeting we go taka and walk bout and go to crystal jade... so fun... 1st time we actually go out by ourselves and haf dinner without ariel or zarah... really feel the warmth and as though we r one family... =)

i haf rcv alot of sermons and manna these few days from sean... learnt alot... rcv alot... i dunno how much i haf grown but i find myself guided by the spirit... haha...

aiya i dunno wad to write ok... dun force me!!

2005-08-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

cough cough 2 weeks wahaha torrance stop asking me to post.. im tired enuff =p but wow this 2 weeks flew by lor...
probably cuz of nite study... bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz... i like it haha... better than sianing at home every dae...
but also got bad points la... cannot practise guitar as often...

now i know the importance of each day in my life... i cannot let it fly by like that... *catch* come back you scumbag =X sy rogers rocks...
i like his sermon... esp this one... love... God's love for us... our love for others... nearly cried... Daddy King... will u please take away my hurts, fill up any gaps in my heart so that i wun go looking for junk food....

guitar lesson by bro walter... good... praise practise... 16 beats down strokes only... meaning 8 downstrokes fast la... played one way... i walk by faith... not bad im improving... im taking some of his DNA haha...
know why?
i broke my string... now i have a reason to change to gauge 11... he gave us quite some homework... research chord family and progression 1645 1564 1624... chim? not really... juz need some practice... no time...

torrance is... gone back to japan... sigh... my brother has went into the valley=) he is growing stronger... devil cannot go near him... cuz hes shining literally... dun u dare come back weak and dry... im gonna edify you...

missed another batch of water baptism... cuz i didnt ask my mum in time... unexpected.. sigh... next batch then...
bible study today... greatest aim... love... long lesson... 2hrs wif ariel... considered short la... haha... she ALWAYS overtime wan... then she was late for church stuff -.-"
wa why am i getting lessons on love... maybe God is telling my smth...
i shud love others more...
i shud not tease people anymore
even though im being teased, juz smile

ENGLISH ORDINARY LEVEL EXAMINATION (PAPER 3)
waaaaaa oral... was so fidgety while waiting for my turn... read through passage... kept stumbling... picture... couldnt find much to say... so nervous... k eu shen gone... 10 mins up! i go seat in front chair...
pray in tongues...
dunno wad to pray for... so holy spirit made intercession...
as i walked there... my heart calmed down miraculously... spoke better... even when i stumble the teacher looking at some where else... so they didnt notice... haha... picture was ok... all the things i prepared... only 50% was used... the others i found irrelevant so cancel cancel then add in my own stuff... CONVERSATION muahahah it was shiok k... it was about WAITING... haha meaning patience... the fruit of patience... woot i rock at that =X haha i tok bout FOP at SIS we queued for 3 hrs... then we got good seats in the end... meaning the longer we wait, the better the harvest... when i said that, they woah and BIG EYES haha... magnifies twice cuz of her specs... if we wait longer for the fruit to ripen, it will taste much sweeter and nicer... wahaha thank you and zhao to bs lol...

im sorta broke la... arise and build, then nite study everyday... then sean lee come ask me for $55 for venture nite and cannot back out... haf to ask my dad... i dun like tt... dammit... but God said he will provide... Jehovah Jireh...

now... sean and i is calling him Jehovah Abba... i really wanna haf a father son relationship... juz seat in his lap and cry out every problems and hurt to him... he knows it hurts... his heart probably hurt even more than our wounds... i love him... thank you abba